APOLOGIA PEO VITA SUA:' % ^k t« a |aii#t ENTITLED " WHAT, THEN, DOES DK. NEWMAN MEAN?" Commit thy way to the Lord, and trust in Him, and He will do it. And He will bring forth thy justice as the light, and thy judg- ment as the noon-day.'* BY JOHN HENEY NEWMAN, D.D. LONDON: LONGMAN, GREEN, LONGMAN, ROBERT; 1864. r. CONTENTS. PART I. PAGE Mr. Kingsley's Metliod of Disputation .... 1 PART II. True Mode of meeting Mr. Kingsley . . . .27 PART m. History of my Religious Opinions up to 1833 . - .53 PART IV. History of my Eeligious Opinions from 1833 to 1839 . 101 PART V. History of my Eeligious Opinions from 1839 to 1841 . 177 PART VI. History of my Religious Opinions from 1841 to 1845 . 255 iv coNTEkrs. PART vn. PAGE General Answer to Mr. Kingsley 371 APPENDIX. Answer in Detail to Mr. Kingsley*B Accusations . . 1 PART I. MR. KINGSLEY'S METHOD OF DISPUTATIOI^. B PART I. ME. KINGSLEY'S method OF DISPUTATION. I CANNOT be sorry to have forced Mr. Kingsley to bring out in fulness his charges against me. It is far better that he should discharge his thoughts upon me in my lifetime, than after I am dead. Under the circumstances I am happy in having the opportunity of reading the worst that can be said of me by a writer who has taken pains with his work and is well satisfied with it. I account it a gain to be surveyed from without by one who hates the principles which are nearest to my heart, has no personal knowledge of me to set right his misconceptions of my doctrine, and who has some motive or other to be as severe with me as he can possibly be. And first of all, I beg to compliment him on the motto in his Title-page; it is felicitous. A motto should contain, as in a nutshell, the contents, or the character, or the drift, or the B 2 4 MR. kingsley's method of disputation. animus of the writing to which it is prefixed. The words which he has taken from me are so apposite as to he almost prophetical. There cannot be a better illustration than he thereby affords of the aphorism which I intended them to convey. I said that it is not more than an hyperbolical expression to say that in certain cases a lie is the nearest approach to truth. Mr. Kingsley's pamphlet is emphatically one of such cases as are contemplated in that pro- position. I really believe, that his view of me is about as near an approach to the truth about my writings and doings, as he is capable of taking. He has done his worst towards me ; but he has also done his best. So far well ; but, while I impute to him no malice, I unfeignedly think, on the other hand, that, in his invective against me, he as faith- fully fulfils the other half of the proposition also. This is not a mere sharp retort upon Mr. Kingsley, as will be seen, when I come to consider directly the subject, to which the words of his motto relate. I have enlarged on that subject in various passages of my publications ; I have said that minds in different states and circumstances cannot under- stand one another, and that in all cases they must be instructed according to their capacity, and, if not taught step by step, they learn only so much the less ; that children do not apprehend the thoughts of grown people, nor savages the instincts of civilization, nor blind men the perceptions of sight, nor pagans the doctrines of Christianity, nor MR. KINGSLEY's method OF DISPUTATION. 5 men the experiences of Angels. In the same way, there are people of matter-of-fact, prosaic minds, who cannot take in the fancies of poets ; and others of shallow, inaccurate minds, who cannot take in the ideas of philosophical inquirers. In a Lecture of mine I have illustrated thi§ phenome- non by the supposed instance of a foreigner, who, after reading a commentary on the principles of English Law, does not get nearer to a real apprehen- sion of them than to he led to accuse Englishmen of considering that the Queen is impeccable and infallible, and that the Parliament is omnipotent. Mr. Kingsley has read me from beginning to end in the fashion in which the hypothetical Russian read Blackstone ; not, I repeat, from malice, but be- cause of his intellectual build. He appears to be so constituted as to have no notion of what goes on in minds very different from his own, and moreover to be stone-blind to his ignorance. A modest man or a philosopher would have scrupled to treat with scorn and scoffing, as Mr. Kingsley does in my own instance, principles and convictions, even if he did not acquiesce in them himself, which had been held so widely and for so long, — the beliefs and devotions and customs which have been the religious life of millions upon millions of Christians for nearly twenty centuries, — for this in fact is the task on which he is spending his pains. Had he been a man of large or cautious mind, he would not have taken it for granted that cultivation must lead 6 MR. KINGSLEY^S METHOD OF DISPUTATION. every one to see things precisely as he sees them himself. But the narrow-minded are the more prejudiced by very reason of their narrowness. The Apostle bids us " in malice be children, but in understanding be men." I am glad to recognize in Mr. Kingsley an illustration of the first half of this precept; but T should not be honest, if I ascribed to him any sort of fulfilment of the second. I wish I could speak as favourably either of his drift or of his method of arguing, as I can of his convictions. As to his drift, I think its ultimate point is an attack upon the Catholic Religion. It is I indeed, whom he is immediately insulting, — still, he views me only as a representative, and on the whole a fair one, of a class or caste of men, to whom, conscious as I am of my own integrity, I ascribe an excellence superior to mine. He desires to im- press upon the public mind the conviction that I am a crafty, scheming man, simply untrustworthy ; that, in becoming a Catholic, I have just found mv right place; that I do but justify and am properly interpreted by the common English notion of Roman casuists and confessors ; that I was secretly a Catholic when I was openly professing to be a clergyman of the Established Church; that so far from bringing, by means of my conversion, when at length it openly took place, any strength to the Catholic cause, I am really a burden to it, — Mil. kingsley's method of disputation. 7 an additional evidence of the fact, that to be a pure, german, genuine Catholic, a man must be either a knave or a fool. These last words bring me to Mr. Kingsley's method of disputation, which I must criticize with much severity; — in his drift he does but follow the ordinary beat of controversy, but in his mode of arguing he is actually dishonest. He says that I am either a knave or a fool, and (as we shall see by and by) he is not quite sure which, probably both. He tells his readers that on t)ne occasion he said that he had fears I should " end in one or other of two misfortunes." " He would either," he continues, " destroy his own sense of honesty, i. e. conscious truthfulness — and become a dishonest person; or he would destroy his common sense, i. e. unconscious truthfulness, and become the slave and puppet seemingly of his own logic, really of his own fancy. ... I thought for years past that he had become the former ; I now see that he has become the latter." p. 20. Again, " When I read these outrages upon common sense, what wonder if I said to myself, ' This man cannot be- lieve what he is saying?'" p. 26. Such has been Mr. Kingsley's state of mind till lately, but now he considers that I am possessed with a spirit of "almost boundless silliness," of " simple credulity, the child of scepticism," of " absurdity " (p. 41), of a " self-deception which has become a sort of frantic honesty" (p. 26). And as to his fundamental 8 MR. kingsley's method of disputation. reason for this change, he tells us, he really does not know what it is (p. 44). However, let the reason be what it will, its upshot is intelligible enough. He is enabled at once, by this professed change of judgment about me, to put forward one of these alternatives, yet to keep the other in re- serve;— and this he actually does. He need not commit himself to a definite accusation against me, such as requires definite proof and admits of defi- nite refutation ; for he has two strings to his bow ; — when he is thrown oflP his balance on the one leg, he can recover himself by the use of the other. If I demonstrate that I am not a knave, he may exclaim, "Oh, but you are a fool!" and when I demonstrate that I am not a fool, he may turn round and retort, " Well, then, you are a knave." I have no objection to reply to his arguments in behalf of cither alternative, but I should have been better pleased to have been allowed to take them one at a time. But I have not yet done full justice to the method of disputation, which Mr. Kingsley thinks it right to adopt. Observe this first: — He means by a man who is " silly " not a man who is to be pitied, but a man who is to be abhorred. He means a man who is not simply weak and incapable, but a moral leper; a man who, if not a knave, has every thing bad about him except knavery; nay, rather, has together with every other worst vice, a spice of knavery to boot. His simpleton is one who has become such, in judgment for his having once been MR. KINGSLEY's method OF DISPUTATION. 9 a knave. His simpleton is not a born fool, but a self-made idiot, one who has drugged and abused himself into a shameless depravity ; one, who, without any misgiving or remorse, is guilty of drivelling superstition, of reckless violation of sacred things, of fanatical excesses, of passionate inanities, of unmanly audacious tyranny over the weak, meriting the wrath of fathers and brothers. This is that milder judgment, which he seems to pride himself upon as so much charity; and, as he expresses it, he "does not know" why. This is what he really meant in his letter to me of January 14, when he withdrew his charge of my being dishonest. He said, " The tone of your letters, even more than their language, makes me feel, to my very deep pleasure^'' — what? that you have gambled away your reason, that you are an in- tellectual sot, that you are a fool in a frenzy. And in his Pamphlet, he gives us this explanation why he did not say this to my face, viz. that he had been told that I was " in weak health," and was "averse to controversy," pp. 6 and 8. He "felt some reofret for havino^ disturbed me." But I pass on from these multiform imputations, and confine myself to this one consideration, viz. that he has made any fresh imputatioii upon me at all. He gave up the charge of knavery ; well and good : but where was the logical necessity of his bringing another ? 1 am sitting at home without a thought of Mr. Kingsley; he wantonly breaks in upon c 10 MR. kingsley's method of disputation. me with the charge that I had ^'^ informed ^^ the world " that Truth for its own sake need not and on the whole ought not to he a virtue with the Eoman clergy." When challenged on the point he cannot bring a fragment of evidence in proof of his assertion, and he is convicted of false witness by the voice of the world. Well, I should have thought that he had now nothing whatever more to do. "Vain man!" he seems to make answer, " what simplicity in you to think so ! If you have not broken one commandment, let us see whether we cannot convict you of the breach of another. If you are not a swindler or forger, you are guilty of arson or burglary. By hook or by crook you shall not escape. Are you to suflPer or I? What does it matter to you who are going off the stage, to receive a slight additional daub upon a character so deeply stained already ? But think of me, the immaculate lover of Truth, so observant (as I have told you p. 8) of * hault courage and strict honour,' — and (aside) — ' and not as this publican ' — do you think I can let you go scot free instead of myself? No; noblesse oblige. Go to the shades, old man, and boast that Achilles sent you thither." But I have i>Qt even yet done with Mr. Kingsley's method of disputation. Observe se- condly : — when a man is said to be a knave or a fool, it is commonly meant that he is either the one or the other; and that,--either in the sense that MR. KINGSLEY'S method OF DISPUTATION. 11 the hypothesis of his being a fool is too absurd to be entertained; or, again, as a sort of contemp- tuous acquittal of one, who after all has not wit enough to be wicked. But this is not at all what Mr. Kingsley proposes to himself in the antithesis which he suggests to his readers. Though he speaks of me as an utter dotard and fanatic, yet all along, from the beginning of his Pamphlet to the end, he insinuates, he proves from my writings, and at length in his last pages he openly pro- nounces, that after all he was right at first, in thinking me a conscious liar and deceiver. Now I wish to dwell on this point. It cannot be doubted, I say, that, in spite of his professing to consider me as a dotard and driveller, on the ground of his having given up the notion of my being a knave, yet it is the very staple of his Pamphlet that a knave after all I must be. By insinuation, or by implication, or by question, or by irony, or by sneer, or by parable, he enforces again and again a conclusion which he does not cate- gorically enunciate. For instance (1) P. 14. "I know that men used to suspect Dr. Newman.^ I have been inclined to do so myself, of writing a whole sermon for the sake of one single passing hint, one phrase, one epithet, one little barbed arrow which he delivered unheeded, as with his finger tip, to the very heart of an initiated hearer, never to be ivitlidrawn againy c 2 12 MR. kingsley's method of disputation. (2) p. 15. "How was I to know that the preacher, who had the reputation of being the most acute man of his generation, and of having a specially intimate acquaintance with the weak- nesses of the human heart, was utterly blind to the broad meaning and the plain practical result of a sermon like this, delivered before fanatic and hot- headed young men, who hung upon his every word ? That he did not foresee that they would think that they obeyed him, by becoming affected^ artificial^ sly^ shifty^ ready for concealments and equivoca- tions V (3) P. 17. "No one would have suspected him to be a dishonest man, if he had not perversely chosen to assume a style which (as he himself confesses) the world always associates with dis- honesty." (4) Pp. 29, 30. ''If he will indulge in subtle paradoxes, in rhetorical exaggerations; if, whenever he touches on the question of truth and honesty^ he will take a perverse pleasure in saying something shocking to plain English notions, he must take the consequences of his own eccentricities ^ (5) P. 34. "At which most of my readers will be inclined to cry : ' Let Dr. Newman alone, after that He had a human reason once, no doubt: but he has gambled it away.' True: so true, &c." (6) P. 34. He continues : "I should never have written these pages, save because it was my duty to MR. KINGSLEY'S method OF DISPUTATION. 13 show the world, if not Dr. Newman, how the mis- take (!) of his not caring for truth arose.^^ (7) P. 87. "And this is the man, who when accused of countenancing falsehood, puts on first a tone of plaintive ( ! ) and startled innocence, and then one of smug self-satisfaction — as who should ask, ' What have I said ? What have I done ? Why am I on my trial ? ' " (8) P. 40. " What Dr. Newman teaches is clear at last, and / see now how deeply I have wronged him. So far from thinking truth for its own sake to be no virtue, he considers it a virtue so lofty as to be unattainable by man^ (9) P. 43. " There is no use in wasting words on this 'economical' statement of Dr. Newman's. I shall only say that there are people in the world whom it is very difficult to help. As soon as they are got out of one scrape, they walk straight into another." (10) P. 43. "Dr. Newman has shown 'wis- dom ' enough of that serpentine type which is his professed ideal Yes, Dr. Newman is a very economical person." (11) P. 44. "Dr. Newman tries^ by cunning sleight-of-hand logic^ to prove that I did not believe the accusation when I made it." (12) P. 45. "These are hard words. If Dr. Newman shall complain of them, I can only remind him of the fate which befel the stork caught among the cranes, even though the stork had not done all 14 MR. KINGSLEY^S METHOD OF DISPUTATION. he could to make himself like a crane, as Dr, Newman has^ by ' economising ' on the very title page of his pamphlet." These last words bring us to another and far worse instance of these slanderous assaults upon me, but its place is in a subsequent page. Now it may be asked of me, " Well, why should not Mr. Kingsley take a course such as this ? It was his original assertion that Dr. Newman was a professed liar, and a patron of lies ; he spoke some- what at random ; granted ; but now he has got up his references and he is proving, not perhaps the very thing which he said at first, but something very like it, and to say the least quite as bad. He is now only aiming to justify morally his original assertion ; why is he not at liberty to do so ? " Why should he not now insinuate that I am a liar and a knave ! he had of course a perfect right to make such a charge, if he chose ; he might have said, " I was virtually right, and here is the proof of it," but this he has not done, but on the contrary has professed that he no longer draws from my works, as he did before, the inference of my dis- honesty. He says distinctly, p. 26, " When I read these outrages upon common sense, what wonder if I said to myself, ' This man cannot believe what he is saying?' I believe I was wrong:' And in p. 31, ''I said, This man has no real care for truth. Truth for its own sake is no virtue in his eyes, and he teaches that it need not be. / do not say that MR. KINGSLEY'S method OF DISPUTATION. 15 now,^'' And in p. 41, "I do not call this conscious dishonesty; the man who wrote that sermon was already past the possibility of such a sin." Why should he not ! because it is on the ground of my not being a knave that he calls me a fool ; adding to the words just quoted, " [My readers] have fallen perhaps into the prevailing superstition that cleverness is synonymous with wisdom. They cannot believe that (as is too certain) great literary and even barristerial ability may co-exist with almost boundless silliness.'' Why should he not I because he has taken credit to himself for that high feeling of honour which refuses to withdraw a concession which once has been made; though, (wonderful to say!) at the very time that he is recording this magnanimous resolution, he lets it out of the bag that his relin- quishment of it is only a profession and a pretence ; for he says, p. 8 : "I have accepted Dr. Newman's denial that [the Sermon] means what I thought it did; and heaven forbid'''' (oh!) "that I should with- draw my word once given, at whatever disadvan- tage to myself,^'' Disadvantage! but nothing can be advantageous to him which is untrue; therefore in proclaiming that the concession of my honesty is a disadvantage to him, he thereby implies unequi- vocally that there is some probability still, that I am //z^honest. He goes on, " I am informed by those from whose judgment on such points there is no ap- peal, that ''en hault courage^ and strict honour, I am 16 MR. kingsley's method of disputation. also precluded, by the terms of my explanation, from using any other of Dr. Newman's past writings to prove my assertion." And then, " I have declared Dr. Newman to have been an honest man up to the 1st of February, 1864; it was, as I shall show, only Dr. Newman's fault that I ever thought him to be any thing else. It depends entirely on Dr. Newman whether he shall sustain the reputation which he has so recently acquired," (by diploma of course from Mr. Kingsley.) "If I give him thereby a fresh advantage in this argument, he is most wel- come to it. He needs, it seems to me, as many advantages as possible,''^ What a princely mind! How loyal to his rash promise, how delicate towards the subject of it, how conscientious in his interpretation of it! I have no thought of irreverence towards a Scrip- ture Saint, who was actuated by a very different spirit from Mr. Kingsley's, but somehow since I read his Pamphlet words have been running in my head, which I find in the Douay version thus ; " Thou hast also with thee Semei the son of Gera, who cursed me with a grievous curse when I went to the camp, but I swore to him, saying, I will not kill thee with the sword. Do not thou hold him guiltless. But thou art a wise man and knowest what to do with hira, and thou shalt bring down his grey hairs with blood to hell." Now I ask, Why could not Mr. Kingsley be open ? If he intended still to arraign me on the MR. kingsley's method of disputation. 17 charge of lying, why could he not say so as a man ? Why must he insinuate, question, imply, arid use sneering and irony, as if longing to touch a for- bidden fruit, which still he was afraid would burn his fingers, if he did so ? Why must he " palter in a double sense," and blow hot and cold in one breath ? He first said he considered me a patron of lying ; well, he changed his opinion ; and as to the logical ground of this change, he said that, if any one asked him what it was, he could only answer that he really did not know. Why could not he change back again, and say he did not know why ? He had quite a right to do so ; and then his conduct would have been so far straight- forward and unexceptionable. But no; — in the very act of professing to believe in my sincerity, he takes care to show the world that it is a profession and nothing more. That very proceeding which at p. 15 he lays to my charge, (whereas I detest it,) of avowing one thing and thinking another, that pro- ceeding he here exemplifies himself; and yet, while indulging in practices as offensive as this, he ven- tures to speak of his sensitive admiration of " hault courage and strict honour!" "I forgive you. Sir Knight," says the heroine in the Romance, " I forgive you as a Christian." " That means," said Wamba, " that she does not forgive him at all." Mr. Kingsley's word of honour is about as valuable as in the jester^s opinion was the Christian charity of Rowena. But here we are brought to a further D 18 MR. kingsley's method of disputation. specimen of Mr. Kingsley's method of disputation, and having duly exhibited it, I shall have done with him. It is his last, and he has intentionally reserved it for his last. Let it be recollected that he professed to absolve me from his original charge of dishonesty up to February 1. And further, he implies that, at the time when he was writings I had not yet involved myself in any fresh acts suggestive of that sin. He says that I have had a great escape of conviction, that he hopes I shall take warning, and act more cautiously. "It depends entirely," he says, "on Dr, Newman^ whether he shall sustain the reputation which he has so recently acquired" (p. 8). Thus, in Mr. Kingsley's judgment, I was then^ when he wrote these words, still innocent of dishonesty, for a man cannot sustain what he actually has not got; only he could not he sure of my future. Could not be sure! Why at this very time he had already noted down valid proofs, as he thought them, that I had already forfeited the character which he contemptuously accorded to me. He had cautiously said "wp to February 1st," in order to reserve the Title-page and last three pages of my Pamphlet, which were not published till February 12th, and out of these four pages, which he had not whitewashed, he had already forged charges against me of dis- honesty at the very time that he implied that as yet there was nothing against me. When he gave MR. KINGSLEY's method OF DISPUTATION. 19 me that plenary condonation, as it seemed to be, he had already done his best that I should never enjoy it. He knew well at p. 8, what he meant to say at pp. 44 and 45. At best indeed I was only out upon ticket of leave; but that ticket was a pretence ; he had made it forfeit when he gave it. But he did not say so at once, first, because between p. 8 and p. 44 he meant to talk a great deal about my idiotcy and my frenzy, which would have been simply out of place, had he proved me too soon to be a knave again; and next, because he meant to exhaust all those insinuations about ray knavery in the past, which " strict honour " did not permit him to countenance, in order thereby to give colour and force to his direct charges of knavery in the present, which " strict honour " did permit him to handsel So in the fifth act he gave a start, and found to his horror that, in my miserable four pages, I had committed the " enor- mity " of an " economy,'^ which in matter of fact he had got by heart before he began the play. Nay, he suddenly found two, three, and (for what he knew) as many as four profligate economies in that Title-page and those Reflections, and he uses the language of distress and perplexity at this appalling discovery. Now why this coup de theatre f The reason soon breaks on us. Up to February 1, he could not categorically arraign me for lying, and therefore could not involve me, (as was so necessary for his D 2 20 MR. kingsley's method of disputation, case,) in the popular abhorrence which is felt for the casuists of Rome: but, as soon as ever he could openly and directly pronounce (saving his " hault courage and strict honour") that I am guilty of three or four new economies, then at once I am made to bear, not only my own sins, but the sins of other people also, and, though I have been con- doned the knavery of my antecedents, I am guilty of the knavery of a whole priesthood instead. So the hour of doom for Semei is come, and the wise man knows what to do with him; — he is down upon me with the odious names of "St. Alfonso da Liguori," and " Scavini " and " Neyraguet," and " the Romish moralists," and their " compeers and pupils," and I am at once merged and whirled away in the gulph of notorious quibblers, and hypocrites, and rogues. But we have not even yet got at the real object of the stroke, thus reserved for h\^ finale, I really feel sad for what I am obliged now to say. I am in warfare with him, but I wish him no ill; — it is very difficult to get up resentment towards persons whom one has never seen. It is easy enough to be irritated with friends or foes, vis -a- vis ; but, though I am writing with all my heart against what he has said of me, I am not conscious of personal unkindness towards himself. I think it necessary to write as I am writing, for my own sake, and for the sake of the Catholic Priesthood ; but I wish to impute nothing worse to Mr. Kingsley than that he has been MR. KINGSLEY's method OF DISPUTATION. 21 furiously carried away by his feelings. But what shall I say of the upshot of all this talk of my economies and equivocations and the like ? What is the precise work which it is directed to effect ? I am at war with him; but there is such a thing as legitimate warfare : war has its laws ; there are things which may fairly be done, and things which may not be done. I say it with shame and with stern sorrow; — he has attempted a great transgres- sion ; he has attempted (as I may call it) to poison the wells, I will quote him and explain what I mean. " Dr. Newman tries, by cunning sleight-of-hand logic, to prove that I did not believe the accusation when I made it. Therein he is mistaken. I did believe it, and I believed also his indignant denial. But when he goes on to ask with sneers, why I should believe his denial, if I did not consider him trustworthy in the first instance ? I can only answer, I really do not know. There is a great deal to be said for that view, now that Dr. Newman has become (one must needs suppose) suddenly and since the 1st of February, 1864, a convert to the economic views of St. Alfonso da Liguori and his compeers. I am henceforth in doubt and fear^ as much as any honest man can be, concerning every word Dr. Newman may write. How can I tell that I shall not he the dupe of some cunning equivocation^ of one of the three kinds laid down as permissible by the blessed Alfonso da Liguori 22 MR. kingsley's method of disputation. and his pupils, even when confirmed by an oath, because 'then we do not deceive our neighbour, but allow him to deceive himself?' It is admissible, therefore, to use words and sentences which have a double signification, and leave the hapless hearer to take which of them he may choose. What proof have /, then^ that hy ^mean it? I never said it!^ Dr, Newman does not signify^ I did not say it, but I did mean it?" — Pp. 44, 45. Now these insinuations and questions shall be answered in their proper places; here I will but say that I scorn and detest lying, and quibbling, and double-tongued practice, and slyness, and cunning, and smoothness, and cant, and pretence, quite as much as any Protestants hate them; and I pray to be kept from the snare of them. But all this is just now by the bye; my present subject is Mr. Kingsley ; what I insist upon here, now that I am bringing this portion of my discussion to a close, is this unmanly attempt of his, in his concluding pages, to cut the ground from under my feet; — to poison by anticipation the public mind against me, John Henry Newman, and to infuse into the imaginations of my readers, suspicion and mistrust of every thing that I may say in reply to him. This I call poisoning the wells, " I am henceforth in douht and fear^^ he says, " as much as any honest man can be, concerning every word Dr. Newman may write. How can 1 MR. KINGSLEY'S method OP DISPUTATION. 23 tell that I shall not he the dupe of some cunning equivocation? .... What proof have I, that by ' mean it ? I never said it ! ^ Dr. Newman does not signify, ' I did not say it, but I did mean it ?* " Well, I can only say, that, if his taunt is to take effect, I am but wasting my time in saying a word in answer to his foul calumnies; and this is pre- cisely what he knows and intends to be its fruit. I can hardly get myself to protest against a method of controversy so base and cruel, lest in doing so, I should be violating my self-respect and self-pos- session ; but most base and most cruel it is. We all know how our imagination runs away with us, how suddenly and at what a pace; — the saying, " Caesar's wife should not be suspected," is an in- stance of what I mean. The habitual prejudice, the humour of the moment, is the turning-point which leads us to read a defence in a good sense or a bad. We interpret it by our antecedent im- pressions. The very same sentiments, according as our jealousy is or is not awake, or our aversion stimulated, are tokens of truth or of dissimulation and pretence. There is a story of a sane person being by mistake shut up in the wards of a Lunatic Asylum, and that, when he pleaded his cause to some strangers visiting the establishment, the only remark he elicited in answer was, " How naturally he talks ! you would think he was in his senses." Controversies should be decided by the reason; is it legitimate warfare to appeal to the misgivings of 24 MR. kingsley's method of disputation. the public mind and to its dislikings ? Any how, if Mr. Kingsley is able thus to practise upon my readers, the more I succeed, the less will be my success. If I am natural, he will tell them, " Ars est celare artem;'* if I am convincing, he will suggest that I am an able logician; if I show warmth, I am acting the indignant innocent ; if I am calm, I am thereby detected as a smooth hypo- crite; if I clear up difficulties, I am too plausible and perfect to be true. The more triumphant are my statements, the more gertain will be my defeat. So will it be if Mr. Kingsley succeeds in his manoeuvre; but I do not for an instant believe that he will. Whatever judgment my readers may eventually form of me from these pages, I am con- fident that they will believe me in what I shall say in the course of them. I have no misgiving at all, that they will be ungenerous or harsh with a man who has been so long before the eyes of the world; who has so many to speak of him from personal knowledge ; whose natural impulse it has ever been to speak out ; who has ever spoken too much rather than too little ; who would have saved himself many a scrape, if he had been wise enough to hold his tongue ; who has ever been fair to the doctrines and arguments of his opponents ; who has never slurred over facts and reasoninijs which told against himself; who has never given his name or authority to proofs which he thought unsound, or to testimony which he did not think at least plau- MR. kingsley's method of disputation. 25 sible; who has never shrunk from confessing a fault when he felt that he had committed one ; who has ever consulted for others more than for himself; who has given up much that he loved and prized and could have retained, but that he loved honesty better than name, and Truth better than dear friends. And now I am in a train of thought higher and more serene than any which slanders can disturb. Away with you, Mr. Kingsley, and fly into space. Your name shall occur again as little as I can help, in the course of these pages. I shall henceforth occupy myself not with you, but with your charges. PAET II TRUE MODE OF MEETING MR. KINGSLEY. PART II. TRUE MODE OF MEETING MR. KINGSLEY. What shall be the special imputation, against which I shall throw myself in these pages, out of the thousand and one which my accuser directs upon me ? I mean to confine myself to one, for there is onlv one about which I much care, — the charge of Untruthfulness. He may cast upon me as many other imputations as he pleases, and they may stick on me, as long as they can, in the course of nature. They will fall to the ground in their season. And indeed I think the same of the charge of Untruthfulness, and I select it from the rest, not because it is more formidable, but because it is more serious. Like the rest, it may disfigure me for a time, but it will not stain: Archbishop Whately used to say, " Throw dirt enough, and some will stick;" well, will stick, but not stain. I think he used to mean "stain," and I do not agree with him. Some dirt sticks longer than other dirt; but no dirt is immortal. According to the old saying, Prsevalebit Veritas. There are virtues indeed, which the world is not fitted to p 2 so TRUE MODE OF MEETING MR. KTNGSLEY. judge about or to uphold, such as faith, hope, and charity: but it can judge about Truthfulness; it can judge about the natural virtues, and Truthful- ness is one of them. Natural virtues may also become supernatural; Truthfulness is such; but that does not withdraw it from the jurisdiction of mankind at large. It may be more difficult in this or that particular case for men to take cogni- zance of it, as it may be difficult for the Court of Queen's Bench at Westminster to try a case fairly, which took place in Hindoostan; but that is a question of capacity, not of right. Mankind has the right to judge of Truthfulness in the case of a Catholic, as in the case of a Protestant, of an Italian, or of a Chinese. I have never doubted, that in my hour, in God's hour, my avenger will appear, and the w^orld will acquit me of untruthfulness, even though it be not while I live. Still more confident am I of such eventual ac- quittal, seeing that my judges are my own country- men. I think, indeed. Englishmen the most sus- picious and touchy of mankind; I think them unreasonable and unjust in their seasons of excite- ment; but I had rather be an Englishman, (as in fact I am,) than belong to any other race under heaven. They are as generous, as they are hasty and burly; r.nd their repentance for their injustice is greater than their sin. For twenty years and more I have borne an imputation, of which I am at least as sensitive, TRUE MODE OF MEETING MR. KINGSLEY. 31 who am the object of it, as they can be, who are only the judges. I have not set myself to remove it, first, because I never have had an opening to speak, and, next, because I never saw in them the disposition to hear. I have wished to appeal from Philip drunk to Philip sober. When shall I pro- nounce him to be himself again ? If I may judge from the tone of the public press, which represents the public voice, I have great reason to take heart at this time. I have been treated by contemporary critics in this controversy with great fairness and gentleness, and I am grateful to them for it. However, the decision of the time and mode of my defence has been taken out of my hands; and I am thankful that it has been so. I am bound now as a duty to myself, to the Catholic cause, to the Catholic Priesthood, to give account of myself without any delay, when I am so rudely and cir- cumstantially charged with Untruthfulness. I ac- cept the challenge; I shall do my best to meet it, and I shall be content when I have done so. I confine myself then, in these pages, to the charge of Untruthfulness ; and I hereby cart away, as so much rubbish, the impertinences, with which the Pamphlet of Accusation swarms. I shall not think it necessary here to examine, whether I am "worked into a pitch of confusion," or have "carried self-deception to perfection," or am " anxious to show my credulity," or am " in a morbid state of mind," or " hunger for nonsense as 32 TRUE MODE OF MEETING MR. KINGSLEY. my food," or " indulge in subtle paradoxes " and "rhetorical exaggerations," or have "eccentri- cities" or teach in a style "utterly beyond" my Accuser's " comprehension," or create in him "blank astonishment," or "exalt the magical powers of my Church," or have "unconsciously committed myself to a statement which strikes at the root of all morality," or "look down on the Protestant gentry as without hope of heaven," or " had better be sent to the furthest" Catholic "mission among the savages of the South seas," than " to teach in an Irish Catholic University," or have "gambled away my reason," or adopt " sophistries," or have published " sophisms piled upon sophisms," or have in my sermons " culminating wonders," or have a "seemingly sceptical method," or have "barris- terial ability " and " almost boundless silliness," or "make great mistakes," or am "a subtle dialec- tician," or perhaps have "lost my temper," or " misquote Scripture," or am " antiscriptural," or " border very closely on the Pelagian heresy." — Pp. 5. 7. 26. 29—34. 37, 38. 41. 43, 44. 48. These all are impertinences ; and the list is so long that I am almost sorry to have given them room which might be better used. However, there they are, or at least a portion of them ; and having noticed them thus much, I shall notice them no more. Coming then to the subject, which is to furnish TRUE MODE OF MEETING MR. KINGSLEY. 33 the staple of my publication, the question of my Truthfulness, I first direct attention to the passage which the Act of Accusation contains at p. 8 and p. 42. I shall give my reason presently, why I begin with it. My accuser is speaking of my Sermon on Wis- dom and Innocence, and he says, "It must be remembered always that it is not a Protestant, but a Romish sermon." — P. 8. Then at p. 42 he continues, " Dr. Newman does not apply to it that epithet. He called it in his letter to me of the 7th of January, (published by him,) a 'Protestant * one. I remarked that, but considered it a mere slip of the pen. Besides, I have now nothing to say to that letter. It is to his ' Reflections,' in p. 32, which are open ground to me, that I refer. In them he deliberately repeats the epithet ' Pro- testant:' only he, in an utterly imaginary conversa- tion, puts it into my mouth, ' which you preached when a Protestant.' I call the man who preached that Sermon a Protestant ? I should have sooner called him a Buddhist. At that very time he was teaching his disciples to scorn and repudiate that name of Protestant, under which, for some reason or other, he now finds it convenient to take shelter. If he forgets, the world does not, the famous article in the British Critic, (the then organ of his party,) of three years before, July 1841, which, after denouncing the name of Pro- testant, declared the object of the party to be 34 TRUE MODE OF MEETING MR. KINGSLEY. none other than the ' unprotestantising' the English Church." In this passage my accuser asserts or implies, 1. that the Sermon, on which he originally grounded his slander against me in the January No. of the Magazine, was really and in matter of fact a "Romish" Sermon; 2. that I ought in my Pamphlet to have acknowledged this fact; 3. that I didn't. 4. That I actually called it instead a Protestant Sermon. 5. That at the time when I published it, twenty years ago, I should have denied that it was a Protestant Sermon. 6. By consequence, I should in that denial have avowed that it was a " Romish " Sermon ; 7. and therefore, not only, when I was in the Established Church, was I guilty of the dis- honesty of preaching what at the time I knew to be a "Romish" Sermon, but now too, in 1864, I have committed the additional dishonesty of calling it a Protestant Sermon. If my accuser does not mean this, I submit to such reparation as I owe him for my mistake, but I cannot make out that he means any thing else. Here are two main points to be considered; 1. I in 1864 have called it a Protestant Sermon. 2. He in 1844 and now has styled it a Popish Sermon. Let me take these two points separately. 1. Certainly, when I was in the English Church, I did disow^n the word "Protestant," and that, even at an earlier date than my Accuser names; but just let us see whether this fact is any thing TRUE MODE OF MEETING MU. KINGSLEY. 35 at all to the purpose of his accusation. Last January 7th I spoke to this effect : " How can you prove that Father Newman informs us of a certain thin^ about the Roman Clersry," by referring to a Protestant Sermon of the Vicar of St. Mary's? My Accuser answers me thus : " There's a quibble ! why, Protestant is not the word which you would have used when at St. Mary's, and yet you use it now!" Very true; I do; but what on earth does this matter to my argument? how does this word "Protestant," which I used, tend in any degree to make my argument a quibble ? What word should I have used twenty years ago instead of "Protestant?" "Roman" or "Romish?" by no manner of means. My accuser indeed says that "it must always be remembered that it is not a Protestant but a Romish Sermon." He implies, and, I suppose, he thinks, that not to be a Protestant is to be a Roman; he may say so, if he pleases, but so did not say that large body who have been called by the name of Tractarians, as all the world knows. The movement proceeded on the very basis of denying that position which my Accuser takes for granted that I allowed. It ever said, and it says now, that there is something between Protestant and Romish; that there is a " Via Media " which is neither the one nor the other. Had I been asked twenty years ago, what the doctrine of the Established Church was, I a 36 TRUE MODE OF MEETING MR. KINGSLEY. should have answered, " Neither Romish nor Pro- testant, hut ' Anglican ' or ' Anglo-catholic.' " I should never have granted that the Sermon was Romish; I should have denied, and that with an internal denial, quite as much as I do now, that it was a Roman or Romish Sermon. Well then, sub- stitute the word " Anglican " or '* Anglo-catholic " for " Protestant '' in my question, and see if the argument is a bit the worse for it, — thus : " How can you prove that Father Newman informs us a certain thing about the Roman Clergy, by re- ferring to an Anglican or Anglo-catholic Sermon of the Vicar of St. Mary's ? " The cogency of the argument remains just where it was. What have I gained in the argument, what has he lost, by my having said, not "an Anglican Sermon," but "a Protestant Sermon?" What dust then is he throwing into our eyes ! For instance: in 1844 I lived at Littlemore; two or three miles distant from Oxford ; and Little- more lies in three, perhaps in four, distinct pa- rishes, so that of particular houses it is difficult to say, whether they are in St. Mary's, Oxford, or in Cowley, or in Iffley, or in Sandford, the line of demarcation running even through them. Now, supposing I were to say in 1864, that "twenty years ago I did not live in Oxford, because I lived out at Littlemore, in the parish of Cowley;" and if upon this there were letters of mine produced dated Littlemore, 1844, in one of which I said that "I TRUE MODE OF MEETING MR. KINGSLEY". 37 lived, not in Cowley, but at Littlemore, in St. Mary's parish," how would that prove that I contradicted my- self, and that therefore after all I must be supposed to have been living in Oxford in 1844 ? The utmost that would be proved by the discrepancy, such as it was, would be, that there was some confusion either in me, or in the state of the fact as to the limits of the parishes. There would be no confusion about the place or spot of my residence. I should be saying in 1864, " I did not live in Oxford twenty years ago, because I lived at Littlemore in the Parish of Cowley." I should have been saying in 1844, "I do not live in Oxford, because I live in St. Mary's, Littlemore." In either case I should be saying that my habitat in 1844 w^as not Oxford, but Littlemore ; and I should be giving the same reason for it. I should be proving an alibi, I should be naming the same place for the alibi; but twenty years ago I should have spoken of it as St. Mary's, Littlemore, and to-day I should have spoken of it as Littlemore in the Parish of Cowley. And so as to my Sermon ; in January, 1864, I called it a Protestant Sermon, and not a Roman ; but in 1844 I should, if asked, have called it an Anglican Sermon, and not a Roman. In both cases I should have denied that it was Roman, and that on the ground of its being something else ; though I should have called that something else, then by one name, now by another. The doctrine of the Via Media is a fact^ whatever name we G 2 38 TRUE MODE OF MEETING MR. KINGSLEY. give to it ; I, as a Roman Priest, find it more natural and usual to call it Protestant: I, as an Oxford Vicar, thought it more exact to call it Anglican ; but, whateyer I then called it, and what- ever I now call it, I mean one and the same object by my name, and therefore not another object, — viz. not the Roman Church. The argument, I repeat, is sound, whether the Via Media and the Vicar of St. Mary's be called Anglican or Protestant. This is a specimen of what my Accuser means by my " Economies ;" nay, it is actually one of those special two, three, or four, committed after February 1, which he thinks sufficient to connect me with the shifty casuists and the double-dealing moralists, as he considers them, of the Catholic Church. What a " Much ado about nothing ! " 2. But, whether or no he can prove that I in 1864 have committed any logical fault in calling my Sermon on Wisdom and Innocence a Protestant Sermon, he is and has been all along, most firm in the belief himself that a Romish Sermon it is ; and this is the point on which I wish specially to insist. It is for this cause that I made the above extract from his Pamphlet, not merely in order to answer him, though, when I had made it, I could not pass by the attack on me which it contains. I shall notice his charges one by one by and by; but I have made this extract here in order to insist and to dwell on this phenomenon — viz. that he does consider it an undeniable fact, that the Sermon is "Romish," — TRUE MODE OF MEETING MR. KINGSLEY. 39 meaning by "Romish" not "savouring of Romish doctrine" merely, but " the work of a real Romanist, of a conscious Romanist." This belief it is which leads him to be so severe on me, for now calling it "Protestant." He thinks that, whether I have committed any logical self-contradiction or not, I am very well aware that, when I wrote it, T ought to have been elsewhere, that I was a conscious Ro- manist, teaching Romanism ; — or if he does not believe this himself, he wishes others to think so, which comes to the same thing ; certainly I prefer to consider that he thinks so himself, but, if he likes the other hypothesis better, he is welcome to it. He believes then so firmly that the Sermon was a " Romish Sermon," that he pointedly takes it for granted, before he has adduced a syllable of proof of the matter of fact. He starts by saying that it is a fact to be " remembered." " It must be re- membered always^'' he says, " that it is not a Pro- testant, but a Romish Sermon," p. 8. Its Romish parentage is a great truth for the memory, not a thesis for inquiry. Merely to refer his readers to the Sermon is, he considers, to secure them on his side. Hence it is that, in his letter of January 18, he said to me, " It seems to me, that, by referring publicly to the Sermon on which my allegations are founded, I have given every one an opportunity of judging of their injustice^'' that is, an opportunity of seeing that they are transparently just. The notion of there being a Via Media^ held all along 40 TRUE MODE OF MEETING MR. KINGSLEY. by a large party in the Anglican Church, and now at least not less than at any former time, is too subtle for his intellect. Accordingly, he thinks it was an allowable figure of speech, — not more, I sup- pose, than an "hyperbole," — when referring to a Sermon of the Vicar of St. Mary's in the Magazine, to say that it was the writing of a Eoman Priest ; and as to serious arguments to prove the point, why, they may indeed be necessary, as a matter of form, in an Act of Accusation, such as his Pamphlet, but they are superfluous to the good sense of any one who will only just look into the matter himself. Now, with respect to the so-called arguments which he ventures to put forward in proof that the Sermon is Romish, I shall answer them, together with all his other arguments, in the latter portion of this Reply ; here I do but draw the attention of the reader, as I have said already, to the phenomenon itself, which he exhibits, of an unclouded confidence that the Sermon is the writing of a virtual member of the Roman communion, and I do so because it has made a great impression on my own mind, and has suggested to me the course that I shall pursue in my answer to him. I say, he takes it for granted that the Sermon is the writing of a virtual or actual, of a conscious Roman Catholic ; and is impatient at the very notion of having to prove it. Father Newman and the Vicar of St. Mary's are one and the same: there has been no change of mind in him ; what he TRUE MODE OF MEETING MR. KINGSLEY. 41 believed then he believes now, and what he believes now he believed then. To dispute this is frivolous; to distinguish between his past self and his present is subtlety, and to ask for proof of their identity- is seeking opportunity to be sophistical. This writer really thinks that he acts a straightforward honest part, when he says " A Catholic Priest in- forms us in his Sermon on Wisdom and Innocence preached at St. Mary's," and he thinks that I am the shuffler and quibbler when I forbid him to do so. So singular a phenomenon in a man of undoubted ability has struck me forcibly, and I shall pursue the train of thought which it opens. It is not he alone who entertains, and has enter- tained, such an opinion of me and my writings. It is the impression of large classes of men ; the im- pression twenty years ago and the impression now. There has been a general feeling that I was for years where I had no right to be ; that I was a "Romanist" in Protestant livery and service ; that I was doing the work of a hostile Church in the bosom of the English Establishment, and knew it, or ought to have known it. There was no need of arguing about particular passages in my writings, when the fact was so patent, as men thought it to be. First it was certain, and I could not myself deny it, that I scouted the name " Protestant." It was certain again, that many of the doctrines which I professed were popularly and generally known as badges of the Roman Church, as distinguished 42 TRUE MODE OF MEETING MR. KINGSLEY. from the faith of the Reformation. Next, how could I have come hy them? Evidently, I had certain friends and advisers who did not appear ; there was some underground communication be- tween Stonyhurst or Oscott and my rooms at Oriel. Beyond a doubt, I was advocating certain doctrines, not by accident, but on an understanding with ecclesiastics of the old religion. Then men went further, and said that I had actually been received into that religion, and withal had leave given me to profess myself a Protestant still. Others went even further, and gave it out to the world, as a matter of fact, of which they themselves had the proof in their hands, that I was actually a Jesuit. And when the opinions which I advocated spread, and younger men went further than I, the feeling against me waxed stronger and took a wider range. And now indignation arose at the knavery of a conspiracy such as this : — and it became of course all the greater, in consequence of its being the received belief of the public at large, that craft and intrigue, such as they fancied they beheld with their own eyes, were the very instruments to which the Catholic Church has in these last centuries been indebted for her maintenance and extension. There was another circumstance still, which increased the irritation and aversion felt by the large classes, of whom I have been speaking, as regards the preachers of doctrines, so new to them TRUE MODE OF MEETING MR. KINGSLEY. 43 and so unpalatable; and that was, that they deve- loped them in so measured a way. If they were inspired by Roman theologians, (and this was taken for granted,) why did they not speak out at once? Why did they keep the world in such suspense and anxiety as to what was com ng next, and what was to be the upshot of the whole ? Why this reticence, and half-speaking, and apparent indecision ? It was plain that the plan of operations had been carefully mapped out from the first, and that these men were cautiously advancing towards its accom- plishment, as far as was safe at the moment; that their aim and their hope was to carry off a large body with them of the young and the ignorant; that they meant gradually to leaven the minds of the rising generation, and to open the gate of that city, of which they were the sworn defenders, to the enemy who lay in ambush outside of it. And when in spite of the many protestations of the party to the contrary, there was at length an actual movement among their disciples, and one went over to Rome, and then another, the worst anti- cipations and the worst judgments which had been formed of them received their justification. And, lastly, when men first had said of me, " You will see, he will go, he is only biding his time, he is waiting the word of command from Rome," and, when after all, after my arguments and denuncia- tions of former years, at length I did leave the Anglican Church for the Roman, then they said H 44 TRUE MODE OF MEETING MR. KINGSLEY. to each other, "It is just as we said: I told you so." This was the state of mind of masses of men twenty years ago, who took no more than an ex- ternal and common-sense view of what was going on. And partly the tradition, partly the effect of that feeling, remains to the present time. Certainly I con- sider that, in my own case, it is the great obstacle in the way of my being favourably heard, as at present, when I have to make my defence. Not only am I now a member of a most un-English communion, whose great aim is considered to be the extinction of Protestantism and the Protestant Church, and whose means of attack are popularly supposed to be unscrupulous cunning and deceit, but besides, how came I originally to have any relations with the Church of Rome at all? did I, or my opinions, drop from the sky ? how came I, in Oxford, in gremio Universitatis^ to present myself to the eyes of men in that full-blown investiture of Popery ? How could I dare, how could I have the conscience, with warnings, with prophecies, with accusations against me, to persevere in a path which steadily advanced towards, which ended in, the religion of Rome ? And how am I now to be trusted, when long ago I was trusted, and was found wanting ? It is this which is the strength of the case of my Accuser against me; — not his arguments in them- selves, which I shall easily crumble into dust, but TRUE MODE OF MEETING MR. KINGSLEY. 45 the bias of the court. It is the state of the at- mosphere; it is the vibration all around which will more or less echo his assertion of my dishonesty ; it is that prepossession against me, which takes it for granted that, when my reasoning is convincing it is only ingenious, and that when my statements are unanswerable, there is always something put out of sight or hidden in my sleeve; it is that plausible, but cruel conclusion to which men are so apt to jump, that when much is imputed, something must be true, and that it is more likely that one should be to blame, than that many should be mistaken in blaming him; — these are the real foes which I have to fight, and the auxiliaries to whom my Accuser makes his court. Well, I must break through this barrier of pre- judice against me, if I can ; and I think I shall be able to do so. When first I read the Pamphlet of Accusa- tion, I almost despaired of meeting effectively such a heap of misrepresentation and such a vehemence of animosity. What was the good of answering first one point, and then another, and going through the whole circle of its abuse; when my answer to the first point would be forgotten, as soon as I got to the second ? What was the use of bringing out half a hundred separate principles or views for the refuta- tion of the separate counts in the Indictment, when re- joinders of this sortwouldbut confuse and torment the reader by their number and their diversity ? What hope was there of condensing into a pamphlet of a H 2 46 TRUE MODE OF MEETING MR. KINGSLEY. readable length, matter which ought freely to expand itself into half a dozen volumes ? What means was there, except the expenditure of interminable pages, to set right even one of that series of "single passing hints," to use my Assailant's own language, which, "as with his finger tip, he had delivered" against me ? All those separate charges of his had their force in being illustrations of one and the same great impu- tation. He had a positive idea to illuminate his whole matter, and to stamp it with a form, and to quicken it with an interpretation. He called me a /mr, — a simple, a broad, an intelligible, to the English public a plausible arraignment; but for me, to answer in detail charge one by reason one, and charge two by reason two, and charge three by reason three, and so to proceed through the whole string both of accusations and replies, each of which was to be independent of the rest, this would be certainly labour lost as regards any effective result. AVhat I needed was a corresponding anta- gonist unity in my defence, and where was that to be found ? We see, in the case of commentators on the prophecies of Scripture, an exemplification of the principle on which I am insisting; viz. how much more powerful even a false interpretation of the sacred text is than none at all; — how a certain key to the visions of the Apocalypse, for instance, may cling to the mind— (I have found it so in my own case),— mainly because they are positive and objective, in spite of the fullest demon- TRUE MODE OF MEETING MR. KINGSLEY. 47 stration that they really have no claim upon our belief. The reader says, " What else can the pro- phecy mean ?" just as my Accuser asks, '* What, then, does Dr. Newman mean ?" I reflected, and I saw a way out of my perplexity. Yes, I said to myself, his very question is about my meaning ; " What does Dr. Newman mean ?" It pointed in the very same direction as that into which my musings had turned me already. He asks what I mean ; not about my words, not about my arguments, not about my actions, as his ultimate point, but about that living intelligence, by which I write, and argue, and act. He asks about my Mind and its Beliefs and its Sentiments; and he shall be answered ; — not for his own sake, but for mine, for the sake of the Religion which I profess, and of the Priesthood in which I am unworthily included, and of my friends and of my foes, and of that general public which consists of neither one nor the other, but of well-wishers, lovers of fair play, sceptical cross-questioners, interested inquirers, curious lookers-on, and simple strangers, uncon- cerned yet not careless about the issue. My perplexity did not last half an hour. I recognized what I had to do, though I shrank from both the task and the exposure which it would entail. I must, I said, give the true key to my whole life ; I must show what I am that it may be seen what I am not, and that the phantom may be extinguished which gibbers instead of me. 48 TRUE MODE OF MEETING MR. KINGSLEY. I wish to be known as a living man, and not as a scarecrow which is dressed up in my clothes. False ideas may be refuted indeed by argument, but by true ideas alone are they expelled. I will vanquish, not my Accuser, but my judges. I will indeed answer his charges and criticisms on me one by one, lest any one should say that they are unanswerable, but such a work shall not be the scope nor the substance of my reply. I will draw out, as far as may be, the history of my mind; I will state the point at which I began, in what external suggestion or accident each opinion had its rise, how far and how they were developed from within, how they grew, were modified, were com- bined, were in collision with each other, and were changed ; again how I conducted myself towards them, and how, and how far, and for how long a time, I thought I could hold them con- sistently with the ecclesiastical engagements which I had made and with the position which I filled. I must show, — what is the very truth, — that the doc- trines which I held, and have held for so many years, have been taught me (speaking humanly) partly by the suggestions of Protestant friends, partly by the teaching of books, and partly by the action of my own mind: and thus I shall account for that phenomenon which to so many seems so wonderful, that I should have left "my kindred and my father's house" for a Church from which once I turned away with dread; -so wonderful to them! TRUE MODE OF MEETING MK. KINGSLEY. 49 as if forsooth a Religion which has flourished through so many ages, among so many nations, amid *such varieties of social life, in such con- trary classes and conditions of men, and after so many revolutions, political and civil, could not subdue the reason and overcome the heart, without the aid of fraud and the sophistries of the schools. What I had proposed to myself in the course of half an hour, I determined on at the end of ten days. However, I have many difficulties in fulfilling my design. How am I to say all that has to be said in a reasonable compass ? And then as to the materials of my narrative ; I have no autobio- graphical notes to consult, no written explana- tions of particular treatises or of tracts which at the time gave offence, hardly any minutes of definite transactions or conversations, and few con- temporary memoranda, I fear, of the feelings or motives under which from time to time I acted. I have an abundance of letters from friends with some copies or drafts of my answers to them, but they are for the most part unsorted, and, till this process has taken place, they are even too numerous and various to be available at a moment for my purpose. Then, as to the volumes which I have published, they would in many ways serve me, were I well up in them; but though I took great pains in their composition, I have thought little about them, 50 TRUE MODE OF MEETING MR. KINGSLEY. when they were at length out of my hands, and, for the most part, the last time I read them has been when I revised their proof sheets. Under these circumstances my sketch will of course be incomplete. I now for the first time contemplate my course as a whole; it is a first essay, but it will contain, I trust, no serious or substantial mistake, and so far will answer the purpose for which I write it. I purpose to set nothing down in it as certain, for which I have not a clear memory, or some written memorial, or the corroboration of some friend. There are witnesses enough up and down the country to verify, or correct, or complete it; and letters moreover of my own in abundance, unless they have been destroyed. Moreover, I mean to be simply personal and his- torical: I am not expounding Catholic doctrine, I am doing no more than explaining myself, and my opinions and actions. I wish, as far as I am able, simply to state facts, whether they are ultimately determined to be for me or against me. Of course there will be room enough for contrariety of judg- ment among my readers, as to the necessity, or appositeness, or value, or good taste, or religious pru- dence of the details which I shall introduce. I may be accused of lavinor stress on little things, of beinsr beside the mark, of going into impertinent or ridi- culous details, of sounding my own praise, of giving scandal; but this is a case above all others, in which I am bound to follow my own lights and to TRUE MODE OF MEETING MR. KINGSLEY. 51 speak out my own heart. It is not at all pleasant for me to be egotistical; nor to be criticized for being so. It is not pleasant to reveal to high and low, young and old, what has gone on within me from my early years. It is not pleasant to be giving to every shallow or flippant disputant the advantage over me of knowing my most private thoughts, I might even say the intercourse between myself and my Maker. But I do not like to be called to my face a liar and a knave : nor should I be doing my duty to my faith or to my name, if I were to suffer it. I know I have done nothing to deserve such an insult; and if I prove this, as I hope to do, I must not care for such incidental annoyances as are involved in the process. PART III HISTORY OF MY RELIGIOUS OPINIONS. TART III. HISTORY OF MY RELIGIOUS OPINIONS. It may easily be conceived how great a trial it is to me to write the following history of myself ; but I must not shrink from the task. The words " Se- cretum meum mihi," keep ringing in my ears ; but as men draw towards their end, they care less for disclosures. Nor is it the least part of my trial, to anticipate that my friends may, upon first read- ing what I have written, consider much in it irre- levant to my purpose ; yet I cannot help thinking that, viewed as a whole, it will effect what I wish it to do. I was brought up from a child to take great delight in reading the Bible ; but I had no formed religious convictions till I was fifteen. Of course I had perfect knowledge of my Catechism. After I was grown up, I put on paper such recol- lections as I had of my thoughts and feelings on religious subjects, at the time that I was a child K 2 56 HISTORY OF MY RELIGIOUS OPINIONS. and a boy. Out of these I select two, which are at once the most definite among them, and also have a bearing on my later convictions. In the paper to which I have referred, written either in the Long Vacation of 1820, or in October, 1823, the following notices of my school days were sufficiently prominent in my memory for me to consider them worth recording: — " I used to wish the Arabian Tales were true : my imagination ran on unknown influences, on magical powers, and talismans. .... I thought life might be a dream, or I an Angel, and all this world a decep- tion, my fellow-angels by a playful device conceal- ing themselves from me, and deceiving me with the semblance of a material world." Again, "Reading in the Spring of 1816 a sentence from [Dr. Watts's] 'Remnants of Time,' entitled 'the Saints unknown to the world,' to the effect, that ' there is nothing in their figure or countenance to distinguish them,' &c. &c., I sup- posed he spoke of Angels who lived in the world, as it were disguised." The other remark is this : " I was very super- stitious, and for some time previous to my conver- sion " [when I was fifteen] " used constantly to cross myself on going into the dark." Of course I must have got this practice from some external source or other ; but I can make no sort of conjecture whence ; and certainly no one had ever spoken to me on the subject of the Catho- HISTORY OF MY RELIGIOUS OPINIONS. 57 lie religion, which I only knew by name. The French master was an emigre Priest, but he was simply made a butt, as French masters too com- monly were in that day, and spoke English very imperfectly. There was a Catholic family in the village, old maiden ladies we used to think ; but I knew nothing but their name. I have of late years heard that there were one or two Catholic boys in the school ; but either we were carefully kept from knowing this, or the knowledge of it made simply no impression on our minds. My brother will bear witness how free the school was from Catholic ideas. I had once been into Warwick Street Chapel, with my father, who, I believe, wanted to hear some piece of music ; all that I bore away from it was the recollection of a pulpit and a preacher and a boy swinging a censer. When I was at Littlemore, I was looking over old copy-books of my school days, and I found among them my first Latin verse-book ; and in the first page of it, there was a device which almost took my breath away with surprise. I have the book before me now, and have just been showing it to others. I have written in the first page, in my school-boy hand, " John H. Newman, February 11th, 1811, Verse Book;" then follow ray first Verses. Between " Verse " and " Book " I have drawn the figure of a solid cross upright, and next to it is, what may indeed be meant for a necklace, but what 68 HISTORY OF MY RELIGIOUS OPINIONS. I cannot make out to be any thing else than a set of beads suspended, with a little cross attached. At this time I was not quite ten years old. I suppose I got the idea from some romance, Mrs. Eadcliffe's or Miss Porter's ; or from some reli- gious picture ; but the strange thing is, how, among the thousand objects which meet a boy's eyes, these in particular should so have fixed themselves in my mind, that I made them thus practically my own. I am certain there was nothing in the churches I attended, or the prayer books I read, to suggest them. It must be recollected that churches and prayer books were not decorated in those days as I believe they are now. When I was fourteen, I read Paine'^ Tracts against the Old Testament, and found pleasure in thinking of the objections which were contained in them. Also, I read some of Hume's Essays; and perhaps that on Miracles. So at least I gave my father to understand ; but perhaps it was a brag. Also, I recollect copying out some French verses, perhaps Voltaire's, against the immortality of the soul, and saying to myself something like " How dreadful, but how plausible!" When I was fifteen, (in the autumn of 1816,) a great change of thought took place in me. I fell under the influences of a definite Creed, and received into my intellect impressions of dogma, which, through God's mercy, have never been effaced or obscured. Above and beyond the con- IIISTOTIY OF MY RELIGIOUS OPINIONS. 59 versations and sermons of the excellent man, long dead, who was the human means of this begin- ning of divine faith in me, was the effect of the books which he put into my hands, all of the school of Calvin. One of the first books I read, was a work of Romaine's; I neither recollect the title nor the contents, except one doctrine, which of course I do not include among those which I believe to have come from a divine source, viz. the doctrine of final perseverance. I received it at once, and believed that the inward conversion of which I was conscious, (and of which I still am more certain than that I have hands and feet,) would last into the next life, and that I was elected to eternal glory. I have no consciousness that this belief had any tendency whatever to lead me to be careless about pleasing God. I retained it till the age of twenty- one, when it gradually faded away; but I believe that it had some influence on my opinions, in the direction of those childish imao^inations which I have already mentioned, viz. in isolating me from the objects which surrounded me, in confirming me in my mistrust of the reality of material pheno- mena, and making me rest in the thought of two and two only supreme and luminously self-evident beings, myself and my Creator; — for while I con- sidered myself predestined to salvation, I thought others simply passed over, not predestined to eternal death. I only thought of the mercy to myself. The detestable doctrine last mentioned is simply 60 HISTORY OF ]MY RELIGIOUS OPINIONS. denied and abjured, unless my memory strangely deceives me, by the writer who made a deeper impres- sion on my mind than any other, and to whom (humanly speaking) I almost owe my soul, — Thomas Scott of Aston Sandford. I so admired and delighted in his writings, that, when I was an undergraduate, I thought of making a visit to his Parsonage, in order to see a man whom I so deeply revered. I hardly think I could have given up the idea of this expedition, even after I had taken my degree; for the news of his death in 1821 came upon me as a disappointment as well as a sorrow. I hung upon the lips of Daniel Wilson, afterwards Bishop of Calcutta, as in two sermons at St. John's Chapel he gave the history of Scott's life and death. I had been possessed of his Essays from a boy; his Commentary I bought when I was an under- graduate. What, I suppose, will strike any reader of Scott's history and writings, is his bold unworldliness and vigorous independence of mind. He followed truth wherever it led him, beginning with Uni- tarianism, and ending in a zealous faith in the Holy Trinity. It was he who first planted deep in my mind that fundamental Truth of religion. With the assistance of Scott's Essays, and the admirable work of Jones of Nayland, I made a collection of Scripture texts in proof of the doc- trine, with remarks (I think) of my own upon them, before I was sixteen; and a few months later HISTORY OF MY RELIGIOUS OPINIONS. 61 I drew up a series of texts in support of each verse of the Athanasian Creed. These papers I have still. Besides his unworldliness, what I also admired in Scott was his resolute opposition to Anti- noinianism, and the minutely practical character of his writings. They* show him to be a true Englishman, and I deeply felt his influence; and for years I used almost as proverbs what I con- sidered to be the scope and issue of his doctrine, " Holiness before peace," and " Growth is the only evidence of life." Calvinists make a sharp separation between the elect and the world; there is much in this that is parallel or cognate to the Catholic doctrine ; but they go on to say, as I understand them, very differently from Catholicism, — that the con- verted and the unconverted can be discriminated by man, that the justified are conscious of their state of justification, and that the regenerate cannot fall away. Catholics on the other hand shade and soften the awful antaofonism between good and evil, which is one of their dogmas, by holding that there are different degrees of justifica- tion, that there is a great difference in point of gravity between sin and sin, that there is the possibility and the danger of falling away, and that there is no certain knowledge given to any one that he is simply in a state of grace, and much less that he is to persevere to the end: — of the Calvinistic tenets the only one which took root in L 62 HISTORY OF ]VIY RELIGIOUS OPINIONS. my mind was the fact of heaven and hell, divine favour and divine wrath, of the justified and the unjustified. The notion that the regenerate and the justified were one and the same, and that the regenerate, as such, had the gift of perseverance, remained with me not many years, as I have said already. This main Catholic doctrine of the warfare between the city of God and the powers of dark- ness was also deeply impressed upon my mind by a work of a very opposite character, Law's " Serious Call." From this time I have given a full inward assent and belief to the doctrine of eternal punishment, as delivered by our Lord Himself, in as true a sense as I hold that of eternal happiness ; though I have tried in various ways to make that truth less ter- rible to the reason. Now I come to two other works, which produced a deep impression on me in the same autumn of 1816, when I was fifteen years old, each contrary to each, and planting in me the seeds of an intellectual inconsistency which disabled me for a long course of years. I read Joseph Milner's Church History, and was nothing short of ena- moured of the long extracts from St. Augustine and the other Fathers which I found there. I read them as being the religion of the primitive Christians : but simultaneouslv with Milner I read Newton on the Prophecies, and in consequence niSTORY OF MY RELIGIOUS OPINIONS. ()3 became most firmly convinced that the Pope was the Antichrist predicted by Daniel, St. Paul, and St. John. My imagination was stained by the effects of this doctrine up to the year 1843; it had been obliterated from my reason and judgment at an earlier date; but the thought remained upon me as a sort of false conscience. Hence came that conflict of mind, which so many have felt besides myself; — leading some men to make a compromise between two ideas, so inconsistent with each other, — driving others to beat out the one idea or the other from their minds, — and ending in my own case, after many years of intel- lectual unrest, in the gradual decay and extinction of one of them, — I do not sav in its violent death, for why should I not have murdered it sooner, if I murdered it at all ? I am obliged to mention, though I do it with great reluctance, another deep imagination, which at this time, the autumn of 1816, took possession of me, — there can be no mistake about the fact; — viz. that it was the will of God that I should lead a single life. This anticipation, which has held its ground almost continuously ever since, — with the break of a month now and a month then, up to 1829, and, after that date, without any break at all, — was more or less connected, in my mind, with the notion that my calling in life would require such a sacrifice as celibacy involved; as, for instance, missionary work among the heathen, L 2 64 HISTORY OF MY RELIGIOUS OPINIONS. to which I had a great drawing for some years. It also strengthened my feeling of separation from the visible world, of which I have spoken above. In 1822 I came under very different influences from those to which I had hitherto been subjected. At that time, Mr. Whately, as he was then, after- wards Archbishop of Dublin, for the few months he remained in Oxford, which he was leaving for good, showed great kindness to me. He renewed it in 1825, when he became Principal of Alban Hall, making me his Vice-Principal and Tutor. Of Dr. Whately I will speak presently, for from 1822 to 1825 I saw most of the present Provost of Oriel, Dr. Hawkins, at that time Vicar of St. Mary's; and, when I took orders in 1824 and had a curacy at Oxford, then, during the Long Vaca- tions, I was especially thrown into his company. . I can say with a full heart that I love him, and have never ceased to love him ; and I thus preface what otherwise might sound rude, that in the course of the many years in which we were together after- wards, he provoked me very much from time to time, though I am perfectly certain that I have provoked him a great deal more. Moreover, in me such provocation was unbecoming, both because he was the Head of my College, and because in the first years that I knew him, he had been in many ways of great service to my mind. He was the first who taught me to weigh my HISTORY OF MY RELIGIOUS OPINIONS. 65 words, and to be cautious in my statements. He led me to that mode of limiting and clearing my sense in discussion and in controversy, and of dis- tinguishing between cognate ideas, and of obviating mistakes by anticipation, which to my surprise has been since considered, even in quarters friendly to me, to savour of the polemics of Rome. He is a man of most exact mind himself, and he used to snub me severely, on reading, as he was kind enough to do, the first Sermons that I wrote, and other compositions which I was engaged upon. Then as to doctrine, he was the means of great additions to my belief. As I have noticed else- where, he gave me the " Treatise on Apostolical Preaching," by Sumner, afterwards Archbishop of Canterbury, from which I learned to give up my remaining Calvinism, and to receive the doctrine of Baptismal Regeneration. In many other ways too he was of use to me, on subjects semi-religious and semi-scholastic. It was Dr. Hawkins too who taught me to anti- cipate that, before many years were over, there would be an attack made upon the books and the canon of Scripture. I was brought to the same belief by the conversation of Mr. Blanco White, who also led me to have freer views on the subject of inspiration than were usual in the Church of England at the time. There is one other principle, which I gained from Dr. Hawkins, more directly bearing upon 66 HISTORY OF MY RELIGIOUS OPINIONS. Catholicism, than any that I have mentioned; and that is the doctrine of Tradition. When I was an Undergraduate, I heard him preach in the Uni- versity Pulpit his celebrated sermon on the subject, and recollect how long it appeared to me, though he was at that time a very striking preacher; but, when I read it and studied it as his gift, it made a most serious impression upon me. He does not go one step, I think, beyond the high Anglican doctrine, nay he does not reach it; but he does his work thoroughly, and his view was original with him, and his subject was a novel one at the time. He lays down a proposition, self-evident as soon as stated, to those who have at all examined the structure of Scripture, viz. that the sacred text was never intended to teach doctrine, but only to prove it, and that, if we would learn doctrine, we must have recourse to the formularies of the Church; for instance to the Catechism, and to the Creeds. He considers, that, after learning from them the doctrines of Christianity, the inquirer must verify them by Scripture. This view, most true in its outline, most fruitful in its consequences, opened upon me a large field of thought. Dr. Whately held it too. One of its effects was to strike at the root of the principle on which the Bible Society was set up. I belonged to its Oxford Association ; it became a matter of time when I should withdraw my name from its subscription-list, though I did not do so at once. HISTORY OF MY RELIGIOUS OPINIONS. 67 It is with pleasure that I pay here a tribute to the memory of the Rev. William James, then Fellow of Oriel; who, about the year 1823, taught me the doctrine of Apostolical Succession, in the course of a walk, I think, round Christ Church meadow : I recollect being somewhat impatient on the subject at the time. It was at about this date, I suppose, that I read Bishop Butler's Analogy; the study of which has been to so many, as it was to me, an era in their religious opinions. Its inculcation of a visible Church, the oracle of truth and a pattern of sanc- tity, of the duties of external religion, and of the historical character of Revelation, are characteristics of this great work which strike the reader at once ; for myself, if I may attempt to determine what I most gained from it, it lay in two points, which I shall have an opportunity of dwelling on in the sequel ; they are the underlying principles of a great por- tion of my teaching. First, the very idea of an analogy between the separate works of God leads to the conclusion that the system which is of less importance is economically or sacramentally con- nected with the more momentous system, and of this conclusion the theory, to which I was inclined as a boy, viz. the unreality of material phenomena, is an ultimate resolution. At this time I did not make the distinction between matter itself and its phenomena, which is so necessary and so obvious in discussing the subject. Secondly, Butler's doc- 68 HISTORY OF MY RELIGIOUS OPINIONS. trine that Probability is the guide of life, led me, at least under the teaching to which a few years later I was introduced, to the question of the logical cogency of Faith, on which I have written so much. Thus to Butler I trace those two prin- ciples of my teaching, which have led to a charge against me both of fancifulness and of scepticism. * And now as to Dr. Whately. I owe him a great deal. He was a man of generous and warm heart. He was particularly loyal to his friends, and to use the common phrase, " all his geese were swans." While I was still awkward and timid in 1822, he took me by the hand, and acted the part to me of a gentle and encouraging instructor. He, empha- tically, opened my mind, and taught me to think and to use my reason. After being first noticed by him in 1822, I became very intimate with him in 1825, when I was his Vice-Principal at Alban Hall. I gave up that office in 1826, when I became Tutor of my College, and his hold upon me gradually relaxed. - He had done his work towards me or nearly so, when he had taught me to see with my own eyes and to walk with my own feet. Not that I had not a good deal to learn from others still, but I influenced them as well as they me, and co-operated rather than merely concurred with them. As to Dr. Whately, his mind was too different from mine for us to remain long on one line. I recollect how dissatisfied he was with an Article of mine in HISTORY OF MY EELIGIOUS OPINIONS. 69 the London Review, which Blanco White, good- humouredly, only called Platonic. When I was diverging from him (which he did not like), I thought of dedicating my first book to him, in words to the effect that he had not only taught me to think, but to think for myself. He left Oxford in 1831; after that, as far as I can re- collect, I never saw him but twice, — when he visited the University ; once in the street, once in a room. From the time that he left, I have always felt a real affection for what I must call his memory ; for thenceforward he made himself dead to me. My reason told me that it was impossible that we could have got on together longer ; yet I loved him too much to bid him farewell without pain. After a few years had passed, I began to believe that his influence on me in a higher respect than intel- lectual advance, (I will not say through his fault,) had not been satisfactory. I believe that he has inserted sharp things in his later works about me. They have never come in my way, and I have not thought it necessary to seek out what would pain me so much in the reading. What he did for me in point of religious opinion, was first to teach me the existence of the Church, as a substantive body or corporation; next to fix in me those anti-Erastian views of Church polity, w^hich were one of the most prominent features of the Tractarian movement. On this point,* and, as far as I know, on this point alone, he and Hurrell M 70 HISTORY OF ]MY RELIGIOUS OPINIONS. Froude intimately sympathized, though Froude's development of opinion here was of a later date. In the year 1826, in the course of a walk he said much to me about a work then just published, called "Letters on the Church by an Episco- palian." He said that it would make my blood boil. It was certainly a most powerful composi- tion. One of our common friends told me, that, after reading it, he could not keep still, but went on walking up and down his room. It was ascribed at once to Whately ; I gave eager expres- sion to the contrary opinion; but I found the belief of Oxford in the affirmative to be too strong for me ; rightly or wrongly I yielded to the general voice; and I have never heard, then or since, of any disclaimer of authorship on the part of Dr. Whately, The main positions of this able essay are these; first that Church and State should be independent of each other : — he speaks of the duty of protesting " against the profanation of Christ's kingdom, by that double usurpation^ the interference of the Church in temporals, of the State in spirituals," p. 191; and, secondly, that the Church may justly and by right retain its property, though separated from the State. "The clergy," he says p. 133, " though they ought not to be the hired servants of the Civil Magistrate, may justly retain their revenues ; and the State, though it has no right of interference in spiritual concerns, not only is justly HISTORY OF MY RELIGIOUS OPINIONS. 71 entitled to support from the ministers of religion, and from all other Christians, but would, under the system I am recommending, obtain it much more effectually." The author of this work, whoever he may be, argues out both these points with great force and ingenuity, and with a thorough-going vehemence, which perhaps we may refer to the circumstance, that he wrote, not in propria persona, but in the professed character of a Scotch Episcopalian. His work had a gradual, but a deep effect on my mind. I am not aware of any other religious opinion which I owe to Dr. Whately. For his special theological tenets I had no sympathy. In the next year, 1827, he told me he considered that I was Arianizing. The case was this : though at that time I had not read Bishop Bull's Defensio nor the Fathers, I was just then very strong for that ante-Nicene view of the Trinitarian doctrine, which some writers, both Catholic and non-Catholic, have accused of wearing a sort of Arian exterior. This is the meaning of a passage in Froude's Remains, in which he seems to accuse me of speaking against the Athanasian Creed. I had contrasted the two aspects of the Trinitarian doctrine, which are respectively presented by the Athanasian Creed and the Nicene. My criticisms were to the effect that some of the verses of the former Creed were unnecessarily scientific. This is a specimen of a certain disdain for antiquity which M 2 7l HISTORY OF MY RELIGIOUS OPINIONS. had been growing on me now for several years. It showed itself in some flippant language against the Fathers in the Encyclopaedia Metropolitana, about whom I knew little at the time, except what I had learnt as a boy from Joseph Milner. In writing on the Scripture Miracles in 1825-6, I had read Middleton on the Miracles of the early Church, and had imbibed a portion of his spirit. The truth is, I was beginning to prefer intellec- tual excellence to moral; I was drifting in the direction of liberalism. I was rudely awakened from my dream at the end of 1827 by two great blows^illness and bereavement. In the beginning of 1829, came the formal break between Dr. Whately and me ; Mr. Peel's attempted re-election was the occasion of it. I think in 1828 or 1827 I had voted in the minority, when the Petition to Parliament against the Catholic Claims was brought into Convocation. I did so mainly on the views suggested to me by the theory of the Letters of an Episcopalian. Also I disliked the bigoted " two bottle orthodox," as they were invi- diously called. I took part against Mr. Peel, on a simple academical, not at all an ecclesiastical or a political ground ; and this I professed at the time. I considered that Mr. Peel had taken the University by surprise, that he had no right to call upon us to turn round on a sudden, and to expose ourselves to the imputation of time-serving, and that a great University ought not to be bullied HISTORY OF MY RELIGIOUS OPINIONS. 73 even by a great Duke of Wellington. Also by this time I was under the influence of Keble and Froude; who, in addition to the reasons I have given, disliked the Duke^s change of policy as dictated by liberalism. Whately was considerably annoyed at me, and he took a humourous revenge, of which he had given me due notice beforehand. As head of a house, he had duties of hospitality to men of all parties ; he asked a set of the least intellectual men in Oxford to dinner, and men most fond of port; he made me one of the party; placed me between Provost This and Principal That, and then asked me if I was proud of my friends. However, he had a serious meaning in his act ; he saw, more clearly than I could do, that I was separating from his own friends for good and all. Dr. Whately attributed my leaving his clientela to a wish on my part to be the head of a party myself. I do not think that it was deserved. My habitual feeling then and since has been, that it was not I who sought friends, but friends who sought me. Never man had kinder or more indulgent friends than I have had, but I expressed my own feeling as to the mode in which T gained them, in this very year 1829, in the course of a copy of verses. Speaking of my blessings, I said, " Blessings of friends, which to my door, unasked^ unhoped^ have come." They have come, they have gone; they came to my great joy, they went to my great grief. 74 HISTORY OF MY RELIGIOUS OPINIONS. He who gave, took away. Dr. Whately's impres- sion about me, however, admits of this explana- tion : — During the first years of my residence at Oriel, though proud of my College, I was not at home there. I was very much alone, and I used often to take my daily walk by myself. I recollect once meeting Dr. Copleston, then Provost, with one of the Fellows. He turned round, and with the kind courteousness which sat so well on him, made me a bow and said, " Nunquam minus solus, quam cum solus." At that time indeed (from 1823) I had the intimacy of my dear and true friend Dr. Pusey, and could not fail to admire and revere a soul so devoted to the cause of religion, so full of good works, so faithful in his affections; but he left residence when I was getting to know him well. As to Dr. Whately himself, he was too much my superior to allow of my being at my ease with him ; and to no one in Oxford at this time did I open my heart fully and familiarly. But things changed in 1826. At that time I became one of the Tutors of my College, and this gave me position ; besides, I had written one or two Essays which had been well received. I began to be known. I preached my first University Sermon. Next year I was one of the Public Examiners for the B.A. degree. It was to me like the feeling of spring weather after winter ; and, if I may so speak, T came out of my shell; I remained out of it till 1841. HISTORY OF MY RELIGIOUS OPINIONS. 75 The two persons who knew me best at that time are still alive, beneficed clergymen, no longer my friends. They could tell better than any one else what I was in those years. From this time my tongue was, as it w^ere, loosened, and I spoke spon- taneously and without effort. A shrewd man, who knew me at this time, said, " Here is a man who, when he is silent, will never begin to speak; and when he once begins to speak, will never stop." It was at this time that I began to have in- fluence, which steadily increased for a course of years. I gained upon my pupils, and was in parti- cular intimate and affectionate with two of our probationer Fellows, Robert I. Wilberforce (after- wards Archdeacon) and Eichard Hurrell Froude. Whately then, an acute man, perhaps saw around me the signs of an incipient party of which I was not conscious myself. And thus we discern the first elements of that movement afterwards called Tractarian. The true and primary author of it, however, as is usual with great motive-powers, was out of sight. Having carried off as a mere boy the highest honours of the University, he had turned from the admiration which haunted his steps, and sought for a better and holier satisfaction in pastoral work in the country. Need I say that I am speaking of John Keble ? The first time that I was in a room with him was on occasion of my election to a fel- lowship at Oriel, when I was sent for into the 76 HISTORY OF MY RELIGIOUS OPINIONS. Tower, to shake hands with the Provost and Fel- lows. How is that hour fixed in my memory after the changes of forty-two years, forty-two this very day on which I write ! I have lately had a letter in my hands, which I sent at the time to my great friend, John Bowden, with whom I passed almost exclusively my Undergraduate years. "I had to hasten to the Tower," I say to him, "to receive the congratulations of all the Fellows. I bore it till Keble took my hand, and then felt so abashed and unworthy of the honour done me, that T seemed desirous of quite sinking into the ground." His had been the first name which I had heard spoken of, with reverence rather than admiration, when I came up to Oxford. When one day I was walk- ing in High Street with my dear earliest friend just mentioned, with what eagerness did he cry out, "There's Keble!" and with what awe did I look at him! Then at another time I heard a Master of Arts of my college give an account how he had just then had occasion to introduce himself on some business to Keble, and how gentle, courteous, and unaffected Keble had been, so as almost to put him out of countenance. Then too it was re- ported, truly or falsely, how a rising man of bril- liant reputation, the present Dean of St. Paul's, Dr. Milman, admired and loved him, adding, that somehow he was unlike any one else. However, at the time when I was elected Fellow of Oriel he was not in residence, and he was shy of me for niSTOKY OF MY RELIGIOUS OPINIONS. 77 years in consequence of the marks which I bore upon me of the evangelical and liberal schools. At least so I have ever thought. Hurrell Froude broufjht us together about 1828: it is one of the sayings preserved in his " Remains," — " Do you know the story of the murderer who had done one good thing in his life ? Well ; if I was ever asked what good deed I had ever done, I should say that I had brought Keble and Newman to understand each other." The Christian Year made its appearance in 1827. It is not necessary, and scarcely becoming, to praise a book which has already become one of the classics of the language. When the general tone of religious literature was so nerveless and impotent, as it was at that time, Keble struck an original note and woke up in the hearts of thou- sands a new music, the music of a school, long- unknown in England. Nor can I pretend to analyze, in my own instance, the elFect of religious teaching so deep, so pure, so beautiful. I have never till now tried to do so; yet I think I am not wrong in saying, that the two main intellectual truths which it brought home to me, were the same two, which I had learned from Butler, though recast in the creative mind of my new master. The first of these was what may be called, in a large sense of the word, the Sacramental system ; that is, the doctrine that material phenomena are both the- types and the instruments of real things unseen, — N 78 HISTORY OF iVIY RELIGIOUS OPINIONS. a doctrine, which embraces, not only what Angli- cans, as well as Catholics, believe about Sacraments properly so called; but also the article of "the Communion of Saints " in its fulness ; and likewise the Mysteries of the faith. The connexion of this philosophy of religion with what is sometimes called " Berkeleyism " has been mentioned above ; I knew little of Berkeley at this time except by name ; nor have I ever studied him. On the second intellectual principle which I gained from Mr. Keble, I could say a great deal; if this were the place for it. It runs through very much that I have written, and has gained for me many hard names. Butler teaches us that pro- bability is the guide of life. The danger of this doctrine, in the case of many minds, is, its ten- dency to destroy in them absolute certainty, lead- ing them to consider every conclusion as doubtful, and resolving truth into an opinion, which it is safe to obey or to profess, but not possible to embrace with full internal assent. If this were to be allowed, then the celebrated saying, " 0 God, if there be a God, save my soul, if I have a soul!" would be the highest measure of devotion : — but who can really pray to a Being, about whose existence he is seriously in doubt ? I considered that Mr. Keble met this difficulty by ascribing the firmness of assent which we give to religious doctrine, not to the probabilities which introduced it, but to the living power of faith and HISTORY OF MY RELIGIOUS OPINIONS. 79 love which accepted it. In matters of religion, he seemed to say, it is not merely probability which makes us intellectually certain, but probability as it is put to account by faith and love. It is faith and love which give to probability a force which it has not in itself. Faith and love are directed towards an Object; in the vision of that Object they live; it is that Object, received in faith and love, which renders it reasonable to take pro- bability as sufficient for internal conviction. Thus the argument about Probability, in the matter of religion, became an argument from Personality, which in fact is one form of the argument from Authority. In illustration, Mr. Keble used to quote the words of the Psalm : " I will guide thee with mine eye. Be ye not like to horse and mule, which have no understanding; whose mouths must be held with bit and bridle, lest they fall upon thee." This is the very difference, he used to say, between slaves, and friends or children. Friends do not ask for literal commands; but, from their know- ledge of the speaker, they understand his half- words, and from love of him they anticipate his wishes. Hence it is, that in his Poem for St. Bartholomew's Day, he speaks of the " Eye of God's word;" and in the note quotes Mr. Miller, of Worcester College, who remarks, in his Bampton Lectures, on the special power of Scripture, as having " this Eye, like that of a portrait, uniformly N 2 80 HISTORY OF MY RELIGIOUS OPINIONS. fixed upon us, turn where we will." The view thus suggested by Mr. Keble, is brought forward in one of the earliest of the " Tracts for the Times." In No. 8 I say, " The Gospel is a Law of Liberty. We are treated as sons, not as ser- vants; not subjected to a code of formal command- ments, but addressed as those who love God, and wish to please Him." I did not at all dispute this view of the matter, for I made use of it myself; but I was dissatisfied, because it did not go to the root of the diflSculty. It was beautiful and religious, but it did not even profess to be logical; and accordingly I tried to complete it by considerations of my own, which are implied in my University Sermons, Essay on Eccle- siastical Miracles, and Essay on Development of Doctrine. My argument is in outline as follows : that that absolute certitude which we were able to possess, whether as to the truths of natural theo- logy, or as to the fact of a revelation, was the result of an assemblage of concurring and converging probabilities, and that, both according to the con- stitution of the human mind and the will of its Maker; that certitude was a habit of mind, that certainty was a quality of propositions; that pro- babilities which did not reach to logical certainty, might create a mental certitude; that the cer- titude thus created might equal in measure and strength the certitude which was created by the strictest scientific demonstration; and that to have HISTORY OF MY RELIGIOUS OPINIONS. 81 such certitude might in given cases and to given individuals be a plain duty, though not to others in other circumstances : — Moreover, that as there were probabilities which sufficed to create certitude, so there were other probabilities which were legitimately adapted to create opinion; that it might be quite as much a matter of duty in given cases and to given persons to have about a fact an opinion of a definite strength and consistency, as in the case of greater or of more numerous probabilities it was a duty to have a certitude ; that accordingly we were bound to be more or less sure, on a sort of (as it were) gra- duated scale of assent, viz. according as the pro- babilities attaching to a professed fact were brought home to us, and, as the case might be, to enter- tain about it a pious belief, or a pious opinion, or a religious conjecture, or at least, a tolerance of such belief, or opinion, or conjecture in others; that on the other hand, as it was a duty to have a belief, of more or less strong texture, in given cases, so in other cases it was a duty not to believe, not to opine, not to conjecture, not even to tolerate the notion that a professed fact was true, inasmuch as it would be credulity or superstition, or some other moral fault, to do so. This was the region of Private Judgment in religion ; that is, of a Private Judgment, not formed arbitrarily and according to one's fancy or liking, but conscientiously, and under a sense of duty. 82 HISTORY OF MY RELIGIOUS OPINIONS. Considerations such as these throw a new light on the suhject of Miracles, and they seem to have led me to re-consider the view which I took of them in my Essay in 1825-6. I do not know what was the date of this change in me, nor of the train of ideas on which it was founded. That there had been already great miracles, as those of Scripture, as the Resurrection, was a fact establishing the principle that the laws of nature had sometimes been sus- pended by their Divine Author; and since what had happened once might happen again, a certain probability, at least no kind of improbability, was attached to the idea, taken in itself, of miraculous intervention in later times, and miraculous accounts were to be regarded in connexion with the veri- similitude, scope, instrument, character, testimony, and circumstances, with which they presented themselves to us; and, according to the final result of those various considerations, it was our duty to be sure, or to believe, or to opine, or to surmise, or to tolerate, or to reject, or to denounce. The main difference between my Essay on Miracles in 1826 and my Essay in 1842 is this: that in 1826 I considered that miracles were sharply divided into two classes, those which were to be received, and those which were to be rejected; whereas in 1842 I saw that they were to be re- garded according to their greater or less probability, which was in some cases sufficient to create certi- tude about them, in other cases only belief or opinion. HISTORY OF MY RELIGIOUS OPINIONS. 83 Moreover, the argument from Analogy, on which this view of the question was founded, suggested to me something besides, in recommendation of the Ecclesiastical Miracles. It fastened itself upon the theory of Church History which I had learned as a boy from Joseph Milner. It is Milner^s doctrine, that upon the visible Church come down from above, from time to time, large and temporary Effusions of divine grace. This is the leading idea of his work. He begins by speaking of the Day of Pentecost, as marking " the first of those Effusions of the Spirit of God, which from age to age have visited the earth since the coming of Christ." Vol. i. p. 3. In a note he adds that "in the term ' Effusion ' there is not here included the idea of the miraculous or extraordinary opera- tions of the Spirit of God;" but still it was natural for me, admitting Milner's general theory, and applying to it the principle of analogy, not to stop short at his abrupt ipse dixit^ but boldly to pass forward to the conclusion, on other grounds plausible, that, as miracles accompanied the first effusion of grace, so they might accompany the later. It is surely a natural and on the whole, a true antici- pation (though of course there are exceptions in particular cases), that gifts and graces go together; now, according to the ancient Catholic doctrine, the gift of miracles was viewed as the attendant and shadow of transcendent sanctity : and moreover, as such sanctity was not of every day's occurrence, nay 84 HISTORY OF MY RELIGIOUS OPINIONS. further, as one period of Church history differed widely from another, and, as Joseph Milner would say, there have been generations or centuries of degeneracy or disorder, and times of revival, and as one region might be in the mid-day of religious fervour, and another in twilight or gloom, there was no force in the popular argument, that, be- cause we did not see miracles with our own eyes, miracles had not happened in former times, or were not now at this very time taking place in distant places : — but I must not dwell longer on a subject, to which in a few words it is impossible to do justice. Hurrell Froude was a pupil of Keble's, formed by him, and in turn reacting upon him. I knew him first in 1826, and was in the closest and most affectionate friendship with him from about 1829 till his death in 183(). He was a man of the highest gifts, — so truly many-sided, that it would be presumptuous in me to attempt to describe him, except under those aspects, in which he came before me. Nor have I here to speak of the gentleness and tenderness of nature, the playfulness, the free elastic force and graceful versatility of mind, and the patient winning considerateness in discussion, which endeared him to those to whom he opened his heart ; for I am all along engaged upon matters of belief and opinion, and am introducing others into mv narrative, not for their own sake, or HISTORY OF MY RELIGIOUS OPINIONS. 85 because I love and have loved them, so much as because, and so far as, they have influenced my theological views. In this respect then, I speak of Hurrell Froude, — in his intellectual aspect, — as a man of high genius, brimful and overflowing with ideas and views, in him original, which were too many and strong even for his bodily strength, and which crowded and jostled against each other in their efibrt after distinct shape and expression. And he had an intellect as critical and logical as it was speculative and bold. Dying prematurely, as he did, and in the conflict and transition-state of opinion, his religious views never reached their ultimate conclusion, by the very reason of their multitude and their depth. His opinions arrested and influenced me, even when they did not gain my assent. He professed openly his admiration of the Church of Rome, and his hatred of the Re- formers. He delighted in the notion of an hier- archical system, of sacerdotal power and of full eccle- siastical liberty. He felt scorn of the maxim, " The Bible and the Bible only is the religion of Pro- testants;" and he gloried in accepting Tradition as a main instrument of religious teaching. He had a high severe idea of the intrinsic excellence of Virginity ; and he considered the Blessed Virgin its great Pattern. He delighted in thinking of the Saints; he had a keen appreciation of the idea of sanctity, its possibility and its heights ; and he was more than inclined to believe a large amount o 86 HISTORY OF MY RELIGIOUS OPINIONS. of miraculous interference as occurring in the early and middle ages. He embraced the principle of penance and mortification. He had a deep devo- tion to the Real Presence, in which he had a firm faith. He was powerfully drawn to the Medieval Church, but not to the Primitive. He had a keen insight into abstract truth; but he was an Englishman to the backbone in his severe adherence to the real and the concrete. He had a most classical taste, and a genius for philo- sophy and art ; and he was fond of historical inquiry, and the politics of religion. He had no turn for theology as such. He had no apprecia- tion of the writings of the Fathers, of the detail or development of doctrine, of the definite tradi- tions of the Church viewed in their matter, of the teaching of the Ecumenical Councils, or of the con- troversies out of which they arose. He took an eager, courageous view of things on the whole. I should say that his power of entering into the minds of others did not equal his other gifts; he could not believe, for instance, that I really held the Roman Church to be Antichristian. On many points he would not believe but that I agreed with him, when I did not. He seemed not to understand my difficulties. His were of a difibrent kind, the contrariety between theory and fact. He was a high Tory of the Cavalier stamp, and was disgusted with the Toryism of the opponents of the Reform Bill. He was smitten with the love of HISTORY OF MY RELIGIOUS OPINIONS. 87 the Theocratic Church; he went abroad and was shocked by the degeneracy which he thought he saw in the Catholics of Italy. It is difficult to enumerate the precise additions to my theological creed which I derived from a friend to whom I owe so much. He made me look with admiration towards the Church of Rome, and in the same degree to dislike the Keformation- He fixed deep in me the idea of devotion to the Blessed Virgin, and he led me gradually to believe in the Real Presence. There is one remaining source of my opinions to be mentioned, and that far from the least im- portant. In proportion as I moved out of the shadow of liberalism which had hung over my course, my early devotion towards the Fathers returned ; and in the Long Vacation of 1828 I set about to read them chronologically, beginning with St. Ignatius and St. Justin. About 1830 a proposal was made to me by Mr. Hugh Rose, who with Mr. Lyall (afterwards Dean of Canter- bury) was providing writers for a Theological Library, to furnish them with a History of the Principal Councils. I accepted it, and at once set to work on the Council of Nicsea. It was launching myself on an ocean with currents innumerable; and I was drifted back first to the ante-Nicene history, and then to the Church of Alexandria. The work at last appeared under o 2 88 HISTORY OF MY RELIGIOUS OPINIONS. the title of " The Arians of the Fourth Century ; " and of its 422 pages, the first 117 consisted of introductory matter, and the Council of Nicsea did not appear till the 254th, and then occupied at most twenty pages. I do not know when I first learnt to consider that Antiquity was the true exponent of the doctrines of Christianity and the basis of the Church of England; but I take it for granted that Bishop Bull, whose works at this time I read, was my chief introduction to this principle. The course of reading w^hich I pursued in the composition of my work was directly adapted to develope it in my mind. What principally attracted me in the ante-Nicene period was the great Church of Alexandria, the historical centre of teaching in those times. Of Rome for some centuries comparatively little is known. The battle of Arianism was first fought in Alexandria; Athanasius, the champion of the truth, was Bishop of Alexandria ; and in his writings he refers to the great religious names of an earlier date, to Origen, Dionysius, and others who were the glory of its see, or of its school. The broad philosophy of Clement and Origen carried me away ; the philosophy, not the theological doctrine ; and I have drawn out some features of it in my volume, with the zeal and freshness, but with the partiality of a neophyte. Some portions of their teaching, magnificent in themselves, came HISTORY OF MY RELIGIOUS OriNIONS. 89 like music to my inward ear, as if the response to ideas, which, with little external to encourage them, I had cherished so long. These were based on the mystical or sacramental principle, and spoke of the various Economies or Dispensations of the Eternal. I understood them to mean that the exterior world, physical and historical, was but the outward manifestation of realities greater than itself. Nature was a parable ' : Scripture was an allegory : pagan literature, philosophy, and mythology, properly understood, were but a pre- paration for the Gospel. The Greek poets and sages were in a certain sense prophets ; for '^thoughts beyond their thought to those high bards were given." There had been a divine dispensation granted to the Jews ; there had been in some sense a dispensation carried on in favour of the Gentiles. He who had taken the seed of Jacob for His elect people, had not therefore cast the rest of mankind out of His sight. In the fulness of time both Judaism and Paganism had come to nought; the outward framework, which concealed yet suggested the Living Truth, had never been intended to last, and it was dissolving under the beams of the Sun of Justice behind it and through it. The process of change had been slow; it had been done not rashly, but by rule and mea- sure, " at sundry times and in divers manners," first * Vid. Mr. Morris's beautiful poem with this title. 90 HISTORY OF MY RELIGIOUS OPINIONS. one disclosure and then another, till the whole was brought into full manifestation. And thus room was made for the anticipation of further and deeper disclosures, of truths still under the veil of the letter, and in their season to be revealed. The visible world still remains without its divine interpretation ; ^oly Church in her sacraments and her hierarfijiical appointments, will remain even to the end of the world, only a symbol of those heavenly facts which fill eternity. Her mysteries are but the expressions in human language of truths to which the human mind is unequal. It is evident how much there was in all this in correspondence with the thoughts which had attracted me when I was young, and with the doctrine which I have already connected with the Analogy and the Christian Year. I suppose it was to the Alexandrian school and to the early Church that I owe in particular what I definitely held about the Angels. I viewed them, not only as the ministers employed by the Creator in the Jewish and Christian dispensations, as we find on the face of Scripture, but as carrying on, as Scripture also implies, the Economy of the Visible World. I considered them as the real causes of motion, light, and life, and of those elementary principles of the physical universe, which, when ofi*ered in their developments to our senses, suggest to us the notion of cause and eflPect, and of what are called the laws of nature. I have HISTORY OF MY RELIGIOUS OPINIONS. 91 drawn out this doctrine in my Sermon for Michael- mas day, written not later than 1834. I say of the Angels, " Every breath of air and ray of light and heat, every beautiful prospect, is, as it were, the skirts of their garments, the waving of the robes of those whose faces see God." Again, I ask what would be the thoughts of a man who, "when examining a flower, or a herb, or a pebble, or a ray of light, which he treats as something so beneath him in the scale of existence, suddenly discovered that he was in the presence of some powerful being who was hidden behind the visible things he was inspecting, who, though concealing his wise hand, was giving them their beauty, grace, and perfec- tion, as being God's instrument for the purpose, nay, whose robe and ornaments those objects were, which he was so eager to analyze ?" and I there- fore remark that " we may say with grateful and simple hearts with the Three Holy Children, ' O all ye works of the Lord, &c., &c., bless ye the Lord, praise Him, and magnify Him for ever.' " Also, besides the hosts of evil spirits, I con- sidered there was a middle race, Sat/xoi/ta, neither in heaven, nor in hell; partially fallen, capricious, wayward ; noble or crafty, benevolent or mali- cious, as the case might be. They gave a sort of inspiration or intelligence to races, nations, and classes of men. Hence the action of bodies politic and associations, which is so different often from that of the individuals who compose them. Hence 92 HISTORY OF MY RELIGIOUS OPINIONS. the character and the instinct of states and govern- ments, of religious communities and communions. I thought they were inhabited by unseen intel- ligences. My preference of the Personal to the Abstract would naturally lead me to this view. I thought it countenanced by the mention of " the Prince of Persia" in the Prophet Daniel; and I think I considered that it was of such intermediate beings that the Apocalypse spoke, when it intro- duced " the Angels of the Seven Churches." In 1837 I made a further development of this doctrine. I said to my great friend, Samuel Francis Wood, in a letter which came into my hands on his death, " 1 have an idea. The mass of the Fathers, (Justin, Athenagoras, Irenseus, Clement, Tertul- lian, Origen, Lactantius, Sulpicius, Ambrose, Na- zianzen,) hold that, though Satan fell from the beginning, the Angels fell before the deluge, falling in love with the daughters of men. This has lately come across me as a remarkable solution of a notion which I cannot help holding. Daniel speaks as if each nation had its guardian Angel. I cannot but think that there are beings with a great deal of good in them, yet with great defects, who are the animating principles of certain institutions, &c., &c Take England, with many high virtues, and yet a low Catholicism. It seems to me that John Bull is a spirit neither of heaven nor hell . . . Has not the Christian Church, in its parts, sur- rendered itself to one or other of these simulations . HISTORY OF MY RELIGIOUS OPINIONS. 93 of the truth ? . . . . How are we to avoid Scylla and Charybdis and go straight on to the very image of Christ ? " &c., &c. I am aware that what I have been saying will, with many men, be doing credit to my imagination at the expense of my judgment — "Hippoclides doesn't care;" I am not setting myself up as a pattern of good sense or of any thing else : I am but vindi- cating myself from the charge of dishonesty. — There is indeed another view of the Economy brought out, in the course of the same dissertation on the subject, in my History of the Arians, which has afforded matter for the latter imputation ; but I reserve it for the concluding portion of my Reply. While I was engaged in writing my work upon the Arians, great events were happening at home and abroad, which brought out into form and passion- ate expression the various beliefs which had so gra- dually been winning their way into my mind. Shortly before, there had been a Revolution in France; the Bourbons had been dismissed : and I believed that it was unchristian for nations to cast off their governors, and, much more, sovereigns who had the divine right of inheritance. Again, the great Re- form Agitation was going on around me as I wrote. The Whigs had come into power; Lord Grey had told the Bishops to set their house in order, and some of the Prelates had been insulted and threat- p 94 HISTORY OF MY RELIGIOUS OPINIONS. • ened in the streets of London. The vital question was how were we to keep the Church from being liberalized ? there was such apathy on the subject in some quarters, such imbecile alarm in others; the true principles of Churchmanship seemed so radically decayed, and there was such distraction in the Councils of the Clergy. The Bishop of London of the day, an active and open-hearted man, had been for years engaged in diluting the high orthodoxy of the Church by the introduction of the Evangelical body into places of influence and trust. He had deeply offended men who agreed with myself, by an off-hand saying (as it w^as reported) to the efi^ect that belief in the Apos- tolical succession had gone out with the Non -jurors. " We can count you," he said to some of the gravest and most venerated persons of the old school. And the Evangelical party itself seemed, with their late successes, to have lost that simplicity and unworld- liness which I admired so much in Milner and Scott. It was not that I did not venerate such men as the then Bishop of Lichfield, and others of similar sentiments, who were not yet promoted out of the ranks of the Clergy, but I thought little of them as a class. I thought they played into the hands of the Liberals. With the Establishment thus divided and threatened, thus ignorant of its true strength, I compared that fresh vigorous power of which I was reading in the first centuries. In her triumphant zeal on behalf of that Primeval Mystery, to which HISTORY OF MY RELIGIOUS OPINIONS. 95 I had had so great a devotion from my youth, I recognized the movement of my Spiritual Mother. "Incessu patuit Dea." The self-conquest of her Ascetics, the patience of her Martyrs, the irre- sistible determination of her Bishops, the joyous swing of her advance, both exalted and abashed me. I said to myself, " Look on this picture and on that;" I felt aifection for my own Church, but not tenderness; I felt dismay at her prospects, anger and scorn at her do-nothing perplexity. I thought that if Liberalism once got a footing within her, it was sure of the victory in the event. I saw that Reformation principles were pow^erless to rescue her. As to leaving her, the thought never crossed my imagination; still I ever kept before me that there was something greater than the Established Church, and that that was the Church Catholic and Apostolic, set up from the beginning, of which she was but the local presence and organ. She was nothing, unless she was this. She must be dealt with strongly, or she would be lost. There was need of a second Reformation. At this time I was disenoraored from Colleore duties, and my health had suffered from the labour involved in the composition of my Volume. It was ready for the Press in July, 1832, though not published till the end of 1833. I was easily per- suaded to join Hurrell Froude and his Father, who were going to the south of Europe for the health of the former. p 2 06 HISTORY OF MY RELIGIOUS OPINIONS. We set out in December, 1832. It was during this expedition that my Verses which are in the Lyra Apostolica were written ; — a few indeed before it, but not more than one or two of them after it. Exchanging, as I was, definite Tutorial labours, and the literary quiet and pleasant friend- ships of the last six years, for foreign countries and an unknown future, I naturally was led to think that some inward changes, as w^ell as some larger course of action, was coming upon me. At Whit- church, while waiting for the down mail to Fal- mouth, I wrote the verses about my Guardian Angel, which begin with these words : " Are these the tracks of some unearthly Friend?" and go on to speak of "the vision" which haunted me: — that vision is more or less brought out in the whole series of these compositions. I went to various coasts of the Mediterranean, parted with my friends at Rome; went down for the second time to Sicily, at the end of April, and got back to England by Palermo in the early part of July. The strangeness of foreign life threw me back into myself; I found pleasure in historical sites and beautiful scenes, not in men and man- ners. We kept clear of Catholics throughout our tour. I had a conversation with the Dean of Malta, a most pleasant man, lately dead; but it was about the Fathers, and the Library of the great church. I knew the Abbate Santini, at Rome, who did no more than copy for me the HISTOUY OF MY RELIGIOUS OPINIONS. 97 Gregorian tones. Froude and I made two calls upon Monsignore (now Cardinal) Wiseman at the Collegio Inglese, shortly before we left Rome. I do not recollect being in a room with any other ecclesiastics, except a Priest at Castro-Giovanni in Sicily, who called on me when I was ill, and with whom I wished to hold a controversy. As to Church Services, we attended the Tenebrse, at the Sestine, for the sake of the Miserere; and that was all. My general feeling was, " All, save the spirit of man, is divine." I saw nothing but what was external; of the hidden life of Catholics I knew nothing. I was still more driven back into myself, and felt my isolation. England was in my thoughts solely, and the news from England came rarely and imperfectly. The Bill for the Suppression of the Irish Sees was in progress, and filled my mind. I had fierce thouo^hts ag^ainst the Liberals. It was the success of the Liberal cause which fretted me inwardly. I became fierce against its instruments and its manifestations. A French vessel was at Algiers; I would not even look at the tricolour. On my return, though forced to stop a day at Paris, I kept indoors the whole time, and all that I saw of that beautiful city, was what I saw from the Diligence. The Bishop of Lon- don had already sounded me as to my filling one of the Whitehall preacherships, which he had just then put on a new footing; but I was indignant at the line which he was taking, and from my Steamer 98 HISTOEY OF MY RELIGIOUS OPINIONS. I had sent home a letter declining the appoint- ment by anticipation, should it be offered to me. At this time I was specially annoyed with Dr. Arnold, though it did not last into later years. Some one, I think, asked in conversation at Eome, whether a certain interpretation of Scripture was Christian ? it was answered that Dr. Arnold took it; I interposed, "But is he a Christian?" The subject went out of my head at once ; when after- wards I was taxed with it I could say no more in explanation, than that I thought I must have been alluding to some free views of Dr. Arnold about the Old Testament: — I thought I must have meant, "But who is to answer for Arnold?" It was at Kome too that we began the Lyra Apos- tolica which appeared monthly in the British Magazine. The motto shows the feeling of both Froude and myself at the time : we borrowed from M. Bunsen a Homer, and Froude chose the words in which Achilles, on returning to the battle, says, " You shall know the difference, now that I am back again." Especially when I was left by myself, the thought came upon me that deliverance is wrought, not by the many but by the few, not by bodies but by persons. Now it was, T think, that I repeated to myself the words, which had ever been dear to me from my school days, " Exoriare aliquis !" — now too, that Southey's beautiful poem of Thalaba, for which I had an immense liking, came forcibly to my HISTORY OF MY RELIGIOUS OPINIONS. 99 mind. I began to think that I had a mission. There are sentences of my letters to my friends to this effect, if they are not destroyed. When we took leave of Monsignore Wiseman, he had courteously expressed a wish that we might make a second visit to Rome ; I said with great gravity, " We have a work to do in England." I went down at once to Sicily, and the presentiment grew stronger. I struck into the middle of the island, and fell ill of a fever at Leonforte. My servant thought that I was dying, and begged for my last directions. I gave them, as he wished ; but I said, " I shall not die." I repeated, " I shall not die, for I have not sinned against light, I have not sinned against light." I never have been able to make out at all what I meant. I got to Castro- Giovanni, and was laid up there for nearly three weeks. Towards the end of May I set off for Palermo, taking three days for the journey. Before starting from my inn in the morning of May 26th or 27th, I sat down on my bed, and began to sob bitterly. My servant, who had acted as my nurse, asked what ailed me. I could only answer, " I have a work to do in England." I was aching to get home; yet for want of a vessel I was kept at Palermo for three weeks. I began to visit the Churches, and they calmed my impatience, though I did not attend any services. I knew nothing of the Presence of the Blessed Sacra- ment there. At last I got off in an orange boat, 100 HISTORY OF MY RELIGIOUS OPINIONS. bound for Marseilles. We were becalmed a whole week in the Straits of Bonifacio. Then it was that I wrote the lines, " Lead, kindly light," which have since become well known. I was writing verses the whole time of my passage. At length I got to Marseilles, and set off for England. The fatigue of travelling was too much for me, and I was laid up for several days at Lyons. At last I got off again, and did not stop night or day till I reached England, and my mother's house. My brother had arrived from Persia only a few hours before. This was on the Tuesday. The following Sunday, July 14th, Mr. Keble preached the Assize Sermon in the University Pulpits It was published under the title of " National Apostasy." I have ever considered and kept the day, as the start of the religious movement of 1833. PART IV. HISTORY OF MY RELIGIOUS OPINIONS. PART IV. HISTORY OF MY RELIGIOUS OPINIONS. In spite of the foregoing pages, I have no ro- mantic story to tell; but I wrote them, because it is my duty to tell things as they took place. I have not exaggerated the feelings with which I re- turned to England, and I have no desire to dress up the events which followed, so as to make them in keeping with the narrative which has gone be- fore. I soon relapsed into the every-day life which I had hitherto led; in all things the same, except that a new object was given me. I had employed myself in my own rooms in reading and writing, and in the care of a Church, before I left England, and I returned to the same occupations when I was back again. And yet perhaps those first vehement feelings which carried me on were necessary for the beginning of the Movement ; and afterwards, when it was once begun, the special need of me was over. When I got home from abroad, I found that already a movement had commenced in opposition Q 2 104 HISTORY OF MY RELIGIOUS OPINIONS. to the specific danger which at that time was threatening the religion of the nation and its Church. Several zealous and able men had united their counsels, and were in correspondence with each other. The principal of these were Mr. Keble, Hurrell Froude, who had reached home long before me, Mr. William Palmer of Dublin and Worcester College (not Mr. W. Palmer of Magdalen, who is now a Catholic), Mr. Arthur Perceval, and Mr. Hugh Rose. To mention Mr. Hugh Rose's name is to kindle in the minds of those who knew him, a host of pleasant and affectionate remembrances. He was the man above all others fitted by his cast of mind and literary powers to make a stand, if a stand could be made, against the calamity of the times. He was gifted with a high and large mind, and a true sensibility of what was great and beautiful; he wrote with warmth and energy; and he had a cool head and cautious judgment. He spent his strength and shortened his life. Pro Ecclesia Dei, as he understood that sovereign idea. Some years earlier he had been the first to give warning, I think from the University Pulpit at Cambridge, of the perils to England which lay in the biblical and theological speculations of Germany. The Reform agitation followed, and the Whig Government came into power ; and he anticipated in their distribution of Church patronage the authoritative introduction of liberal opinions into the country : — by " liberal" I HISTORY OF MY RELIGIOUS OPINIONS. 105 mean liberalism in religion^ for questions of polities, as such, do not come into this narrative at all. He feared that by the Whig party a door would be opened in England to the most grievous of heresies, which never could be closed again. In order under such grave circumstances to unite Churchmen together, and to make a front against the coming- danger, he had in 1832 commenced the British Magazine, and in the same year he came to Oxford in the summer term, in order to beat up for writers for his publication; on that occasion I became known to him through Mr. Palmer. His reputa- tion and position came in aid of his obvious fitness, in point of character and intellect, to become the centre of an ecclesiastical movement, if such a movement were to depend on the action of a party. His delicate health, his premature death, would have frustrated the expectation, even though the new school of opinion had been more exactly thrown into the shape of a party, than in fact was the case. But he zealously backed up the first efibrts of those who were principals in it; and, when he went abroad to die, in 1838, he allowed me the solace of expressing my feelings of attachment and gratitude to him by addressing him, in the dedica- tion of a volume of my Sermons, as the man, " who, when hearts were failing, bade us stir up the gift that was in us, and betake ourselves to our true Mother." But there were other reasons, besides Mr. 106 HISTORY OF MY RELIGIOUS OPINIONS. Rose's state of health, which hindered those who SO much admired him from availing themselves of his close co-operation in the coming fight. United as both he and they were in the general scope of the Movement, they were in discordance with each other from the first in their estimate of the means to be adopted for attaining it. Mr. Rose had a position in the Church, a name, and serious responsibilities ; he had direct ecclesiastical superiors ; he had inti- mate relations with his own University, and a large clerical connexion through the country. Froude and I were nobodies; with no characters to lose, and no antecedents to fetter us. Rose could not go a-head across country, as Froude had no scruples in doing. Froude was a bold rider, as on horse- back, so also in his speculations. After a long conversation with him on the logical bearing of his principles, Mr. Rose said of him with quiet humour, that "he did not seem to be afraid of inferences." It was simply the truth ; Froude had that strong hold of first principles, and that keen perception of their value, that he was comparatively indifferent to the revolutionary action which would attend on their application to a given state of things ; whereas in the thoughts of Rose, as a prac- tical man, existing facts had the precedence of every other idea, and the chief test of the sound- ness of a line of policy lay in the consideration whether it would work. This was one of the first questions, which, as it seemed to me, ever HISTORY OF MY RELIGIOUS OPINIONS. 107 occurred to his mind. With Froude, Erastianism, — that is, the union (so he viewed it) of Church and State,— was the parent, or if not the parent, the serviceable and sufficient tool, of liberalism. Till that union was snapped. Christian doctrine never could be safe ; and, while he well knew how high and unselfish was the temper of Mr. Rose, yet he used to apply to him an epithet, reproachful in his own mouth ; — Rose was a " conservative." By bad luck, I brought out this word to Mr. Rose in a letter of my own, which I wrote to him in criticism of something he had inserted into the Magazine : I got a vehement rebuke for my pains, for though Rose pursued a conservative line, he had as high a disdain, as Froude could have, of a worldly ambition, and an extreme sensitiveness of such an imputation. But there was another reason still, and a more elementary one, which severed Mr. Rose from the Oxford Movement. Living movements do not come of committees, nor are great ideas worked out through the post, even though it had been the penny post. This principle deeply penetrated both Froude and myself from the first, and recommended to us the course which things soon took spontaneously, and without set purpose of our own. Universities are the natural centres of intellectual movements. How could men act together, whatever was their zeal, unless they were united in a sort of indi- viduality ? Now, first, we had no unity of place. 108 HISTORY OF MY RELIGIOUS OPINIONS. Mr. Rose was in Suffolk, Mr. Perceval in Surrey, Mr. Keble in Gloucestershire ; Hurrell Froude had to go for his health to Barbados. Mr. Palmer indeed was in Oxford; this was an important advantage, and told well in the first months of the Movement ; — but another condition, besides that of place, was required. A far more essential unity was that of ante- cedents,— a common history, common memories, an intercourse of mind with mind in the past, and a progress and increase of that intercourse in the present. Mr. Perceval, to be sure, was a pupil of Mr. Keble's; but Keble, Rose, and Palmer, repre- sented distinct parties, or at least tempers, in the Establishment. Mr. Palmer had many conditions of authority and influence. He was the only really learned man among us. He understood theology as a science; he was practised in the scholastic mode of controversial writing; and I believe, was as well acquainted, as he was dissatisfied, with the Catholic schools. He was as decided in his re- ligious views, as he was cautious and even subtle in their expression, and gentle in their enforce- ment. But he was deficient in depth ; and besides, coming from a distance, he never had really grown into an Oxford man, nor was he generally received as such ; nor had he any insight into the force of personal influence and congeniality of thought in carrying out a religious theory, — a condition which Froude and I considered essential to any true HISTORY OF MY RELIGIOUS OPINIONS. 109 success in the stand which had to be made against Liberalism. Mr. Palmer had a certain connexion, as it may be called, in the Establishment, consist- ing of high Church dignitaries. Archdeacons, Lon- don Rectors, and the like, who belonged to what was commonly called the high-and-dry school. They were far more opposed than even he was to the irresponsible action of individuals. Of course their heau ideal in ecclesiastical action was a board of safe, sound, sensible men. Mr. Palmer was their organ and representative ; and he wished for a Committee, an Association, with rules and meetings, to protect the interests of the Church in its existing peril. He was in some measure supported by Mr. Per- ceval. I, on the other hand, had out of my own head begun the Tracts; and these, as representing the antagonist principle of personality, were looked upon by Mr. Palmer's friends with considerable alarm. The great point at the time with these good men in London, — some of them men of the highest principle, and far from influenced by what we used to call Erastianism, — was to put down the Tracts. I, as their editor, and mainly their author, was not unnaturally willing to give way. Keble and Froude advocated their continuance strongly, and were angry with me for consenting to stop them. Mr. Palmer shared the anxiety of his own friends; and, kind as were his thoughts of us, he still not unnaturally felt, for reasons of his own, B 110 HISTORY OF MY RELIGIOUS OPINIONS. some fidget and nervousness at the course which his Oriel friends were taking. Froude, for whom he had a real liking, took a high tone in his pro- ject of measures for dealing with bishops and clergy, Tvhich must have shocked and scandalized him con- siderably. As for me, there was matter enough in the early Tracts to give him equal disgust; and doubtless I much tasked his generosity, when he had to defend me, whether against the London dignitaries, or the country clergy. Oriel, from the time of Dr. Copleston to Dr. Hampden, had had a name far and wide for liberality of thought ; it had received a formal recognition from the Edin- burgh Review, if my memory serves me truly, as the school of speculative philosophy in England; and on one occasion, in 1833, when I presented myself, with some of the first papers of the Move- ment, to a country clergyman in Northamptonshire, he paused awhile, and then, eyeing me with sig- nificance, asked, " Whether Whately was at the bottom of them?" Mr. Perceval wrote to me in support of the judgment of Mr. Palmer and the dignitaries. I replied in a letter, which he afterwards published. "As to the Tracts," I said to him (I quote my own words from his Pamphlet), " every one has his own taste. You object to some things, another to others. If we altered to please every one, the efioct would be spoiled. They were not intended as symbols e cathedra, but as the expression of HISTORY OF MY RELIGIOUS OPINIONS. Ill individual minds ; and individuals, feeling strongly, while on the one hand, they are incidentally faulty in mode or language, are still peculiarly effective. No great work was done by a system; whereas systems rise out of individual exertions. Luther was an individual. The very faults of an indi- vidual excite attention; he loses, but his cause (if good and he powerful-minded) gains. This is the way of things : we promote truth by a self- sacrifice." The visit which I made to the Northampton* shire Rector was only one of a series of similar expedients, which I adopted during the year 1833. I called upon clergy in various parts of the country, whether I was acquainted with them or not, and I attended at the houses of friends where several of them were from time to time assembled. I do not think that much came of such attempts, nor were they quite in my way. Also I wrote various letters to clergymen, which fared not much better, except that they advertised the fact, that a rally in favour of the Church was commencing. I did not care whether my visits were made to high Church or low Church; I wished to make a strong pull in union with all who were opposed to the principles of liberalism, whoever they might be. Giving my name to the Editor, I commenced a series of letters in the Record Newspaper : they ran to a consider- able length; and were borne by him with great courtesy and patience. They were headed as being R 2 112 HISTORY OF MY RELIGIOUS OPINIONS. on " Church Reform." The first was on the Kevival of Church Discipline ; the second, on its Scripture proof; the third, on the application of the doctrine; the fourth, was an answer to objections; the fifth, was on the benefits of discipline. And then the series was abruptly brought to a termination. I had said what I really felt, and what was also in keeping with the strong teaching of the Tracts, but I suppose the Editor discovered in me some divergence from his own line of thought; for at length he sent a very civil letter, apologizing for the non-appearance of my sixth communication, on the ground that it contained an attack upon "Temperance Societies," about which he did not wish a controversy in his columns. He added, however, his serious regret at the character of the Tracts. I had subscribed a small sum in 1828 towards the first start of the Record. Acts of the officious character, which I have been describing, were uncongenial to my natural temper, to the genius of the Movement, and to the historical mode of its success : — they were the fruit of that exuberant and joyous energy with which I had re- turned from abroad, and which T never had before or since. I had the exultation of health restored, and home regained. While I was at Palermo and thought of the breadth of the Mediterranean, and the wearisome journey across France, I could not imagine how I was ever to get to England ; but now I was amid familiar scenes and faces once more. HISTORY OF MY RELIGIOUS OPINIONS. 113 And my health and strength came back to me with such a rebound, that some friends at Oxford, on seeing me, did not well know that it was I, and hesitated before they spoke to me. And I had the consciousness that I was employed in that work which I had been dreaming about, and which I felt to be so momentous and inspiring. I had a supreme confidence in our cause; we were upholding that primitive Christianity which was delivered for all time by the early teachers of the Church, and which was registered and attested in the Anglican formu- laries and by the Anglican divines. That ancient religion had well nigh faded away out of the land, through the political changes of the last 150 years, and it must be restored. It would be in fact a second Reformation: — a better reformation, for it would be a return not to the sixteenth century, but to the seventeenth. No time was to be lost, for the Whigs had come to do their worst, and the rescue might come too late. Bishopricks were already in course of suppression; Church property was in course of confiscation ; Sees would soon be receiving unsuita- ble occupants. We knew enough to begin preach- ing upon, and there was no one else to preach. I felt as on a vessel, which first gets under weigh, and then the deck is cleared out, and the luggage and live stock stored away into their proper receptacles. Nor was it only that I had confidence in our cause, both in itself, and in its controversial force, but besides, I despised every rival system of doc- 114 HISTORY OF MY RELIGIOUS OPINIONS. trme and its arguments. As to the high Church and the low Church, I thought that the one had not much more of a logical basis than the other; while I had a thorough contempt for the evangeli- cal. I had a real respect for the character of many of the advocates of each party, but that did not give cogency to their arguments ; and I thought on the other hand that the Apostolical form of doc- trine was essential and imperative, and its grounds of evidence impregnable. Owing to this confi- dence, it came to pass at that time, that there was a double aspect in my bearing towards others, which it is necessary for me to enlarge upon. My be- haviour had a mixture in it both of fierceness and of sport ; and on this account, I dare say, it gave offence to many ; nor am I here defending it. I wished men to agree with me, and I walked with them step by step, as far as they would go; this I did sincerely ; but if they would stop, I did not much care about it, but walked on, with some satisfaction that I had brought them so far. I liked to make them preach the truth without knowing it, and en- couraged them to do so. It was a satisfaction to me that the Record had allowed me to say so much in its columns, without remonstrance. I was amused to hear of one of the Bishops, who, on reading an early Tract on the Apostolical Succession, could not make up his mind whether he held the doctrine or not. I was not distressed at the wonder or anger of dull and self-conceited men, at propositions which they HISTORY OF MY RELIGIOUS OPINIONS. 115 did not understand. When a correspondent, in good faith, wrote to a newspaper, to say that the " Sacrifice of the Holy Eucharist,'' spoken of in the Tract, was a false print for " Sacrament," I thought the mistake too pleasant to be corrected before I was asked about it. I was not unwilling to draw an opponent on step by step to the brink of some intellectual absurdity, and to leave him to get back as he could. I was not unwilling to play with a man, who asked me impertinent questions. I think I had in my mouth the words of the Wise man, " Answer a fool according to his folly," especially if he was prying or spiteful. I was reckless of the gossip which was circulated about me ; and, when I might easily have set it right, did not deign to do so. Also I used irony in conversation, when mat- ter-of-fact men would not see what I meant. This kind of behaviour was a sort of habit with me. If I have ever trifled with my subject, it was a more serious fault. I never used arguments which I saw clearly to be unsound. The nearest approach which I remember to such conduct, but which I consider was clear of it nevertheless, was in the case of Tract 15. The matter of this Tract was supplied to me by a friend, to whom I had applied for assistance, but who did not wish to be mixed up with the publication. He gave it me, that I might throw it into shape, and I took his arguments as they stood. In the chief portion of the Tract I fully agreed ; for instance, as to what it 116 HISTORY OF MY RELIGIOUS OPINIONS. says about the Council of Trent; but there were arguments, or some argument, in it which I did not follow ; I do not recollect w^hat it was. Froude, I think, was disgusted with the whole Tract, and accused me of economy in publishing it. It is prin- cipally through Mr. Froude's Remains that this word has got into our language. I think, I de- fended myself with arguments such as these : — that, as every one knew, the Tracts w^ere written by vari- ous persons who agreed together in their doctrine, but not always in the arguments by which it was to be proved; that we must be tolerant of difference of opinion among ourselves ; that the author of the Tract had a right to his own opinion, and that the argument in question was ordinarily received; that I did not give my own name or authority, nor was asked for my personal belief, but only acted instru- mentally, as one might translate a friend's book into a foreign language. I account these to be good arguments; nevertheless I feel also that such practices admit of easy abuse and are consequently dangerous ; but then again, I feel also this, — that if all such mistakes were to be severely visited, not many men in public life would be left with a cha- racter for honour and honesty. This absolute confidence in my cause, which led me to the imprudence or wantonness which I have been instancing, also laid me open, not unfairly, to the opposite charge of fierceness in certain steps which I took, or words w^hich I published. In the HISTORY OF MY RELIGIOUS OPINIONS. 117 Lyra Apostolica, I have said that, before learning to love, we must "learn to hate;" though I had explained my words by adding "hatred of sin." In one of my first Sermons I said, " I do not shrink from uttering my firm conviction that it would be a gain to the country were it vastly more super- stitious, more bigoted, more gloomy, more fierce in its religion than at present it shows itself to be." I added, of course, that it would be an absurdity to suppose such tempers of mind desirable in them- selves. The corrector of the press bore these strong epithets till he got to " more fierce," and then he put in the margin a query. In the very first page of the first Tract, I said of the Bishops, that, " black event though it would be for the country, yet we could not wish them a more blessed termination of their course, than the spoiling of their goods and martyrdom." In consequence of a passage in my work upon the Arian History, a Northern dignitary wrote to accuse me of wishing to re-establish the blood and torture of the In- quisition. Contrasting heretics and heresiarchs, I had said, " The latter should meet with no mercy ; he assumes the office of the Tempter, and, so far forth as his error goes, must be dealt with by the competent authority, as if he were embodied evil. To spare him is a false and dangerous pity. It is to endanger the souls of thousands, and it is un- charitable towards himself." I cannot deny that this is a very fierce passage ; but Arius was banished, 118 HISTORY OF MY RELIGIOUS OPINIONS. not burned ; and it is only fair to myself to say that neither at this, nor any other time of my life, not even when I was fiercest, could I have even cut off a Puritan's ears, and I think the sight of a Spanish auto-da-fe would have been the death of me. Again, when one of my friends, of liberal and evangelical opinions, wrote to expostulate with me on the course I was taking, I said that we would ride over him and his, as Othniel prevailed over Chushan-rishathaim, king of Mesopotamia. Again, I would have no dealings with my brother, and I put my conduct upon a syllogism. I said, " St. Paul bids us avoid those who cause divisions ; you cause divisions : therefore I must avoid you." I dissuaded a lady from attending the marriage of a sister who had seceded from the Anoflican Church. No wonder that Blanco White, who had known me under such different circumstances, now hearing the general course that I was taking, was amazed at the change which he recognized in me. He speaks bitterly and unfairly of me in his letters contemporaneously with the first years of the Movement; but in 1839, when looking back, he uses terms of me, which it would be hardly modest in me to quote, were it not that what he says of me in praise is but part of a whole account of me. He says: "In this party [the anti-Peel, in 1829] I found, to my great surprise, ray dear friend, Mr. Newman of Oriel. As he had been one of the annual Petitioners to Par- liament for Catholic Emancipation, his sudden HISTORY OF MY RELIGIOUS OPINIONS. 119 union with the most violent bigots was inexplicable to me. That change was the first manifestation of the mental revolution, which has suddenly made him one of the leading persecutors of Dr. Hamp- den, and the most active and influential member of that association, called the Puseyite party, from which we have those very strange productions, entitled. Tracts for the Times. While stating these public facts, my heart feels a pang at the recollection of the affectionate and mutual friend- ship between that excellent man and myself; a friendship, which his principles of orthodoxy could not allow him to continue in regard to one, whom he now regards as inevitably doomed to eternal per- dition. Such is the venomous character of ortho- doxy. What mischief must it create in a bad heart and narrow mind, when it can work so effectually for evil, in one of the most benevolent of bosoms, and one of the ablest of minds, in the amiable, the intellectual, the refined John Henry Newman 1'^ (Vol. iii. p. 131.) He adds that I would have nothing to do with him, a circumstance which I do not recollect, and very much doubt. I have spoken of my firm confidence in my posi- tion; and now let me state more definitely what the position was which I took up, and the pro- positions about which I was so confident. These were three : — 3 2 120 HISTORY OF MY RELIGIOUS OPINIONS. 1. First was the principle of dogma: my battle was with liberalism ; by liberalism I meant the anti- dogmatic principle and its developments. This was the first point on which I was certain. Here I make a remark : persistence in a given belief is no sufficient test of its truth; but departure from it is at least a slur upon the man who has felt so certain about it. In proportion then as I had in 1832 a strong persuasion in beliefs which I have since given up, so far a sort of guilt attaches to me, not only for that vain confidence, but for my multiform conduct in consequence of it. But here 1 have the satisfaction of feeling that I have nothing to retract, and nothing to repent of. The main principle of the Movement is as dear to me now, as it ever was. I have changed in many things : in this I have not. From the age of fifteen, dogma has been the fundamental principle of my religion : I know no other religion ; I cannot enter into the idea of any other sort of religion; religion, as a mere sentiment, is to me a dream and a mockery. As well can. there be filial love without the fact of a father, as devotion without the fact of a Supreme Being. What I held in 1816, I held in 1833, and I hold in 1864. Please God, I shall hold it to the end. Even when I was under Dr. Whately's in- fluence, I had no temptation to be less zealous for the great dogmas of the faith, and at various times I used to resist such trains of thought on his part. HISTORY OF MY RELIGIOUS OPINIONS. 121 as seemed to me (rightly or wrongly) to obscure them. Such was the fundamental principle of the Movement of 1833. 2. Secondly, I was confident in the truth of a certain definite religious teaching, based upon this foundation of dogma; viz. that there was a visible Church with sacraments and rites which are the channels of invisible grace. I thought that this was the doctrine of Scripture, of the early Church, and of the Anglican Church. Here again, I have not changed in opinion; I am as certain now on this point as I was in 1833, and have never ceased to be certain. In 1834 and the following years I put this ecclesiastical doctrine on a broader basis, after reading Laud, Bramhall, and Stillingfleet and other Anglican divines on the one hand, and after prosecuting the study of the Fathers on the other; but the doctrine of 1833 was strengthened in me, not changed. When I began the Tracts for the Times I rested the main doctrine, of which I am speaking, upon Scripture, on St. Ignatius's Epistles, and on the Anglican Prayer Book. As to the existence of a visible Church, I especially argued out the point from Scripture, in Tract 11, viz. from the Acts of the Apostles and the Epistles. As to the Sacraments and Sacramental rites, I stood on the Prayer Book. I appealed to the Ordination Ser- vice, in which the Bishop says, " Receive the Holy Ghost;" to the Visitation Service, which teaches confession and absolution; to the Baptismal Ser- 122 HISTORY OF MY RELIGIOUS OPINIONS. vice, in which the Priest speaks of the child after baptism as regenerate; to the Catechism, in which Sacramental Communion is receiving " verily the Body and Blood of Christ;" to the Commination Service, in which we are told to do " works of penance ;" to the Collects, Epistles, and Gospels, to the calendar and rubricks, wherein we find the festivals of the Apostles, notice of certain other Saints, and days of fasting and abstinence. And further, as to the Episcopal system, I founded it upon the Epistles of St. Ignatius, which inculcated it in various ways. One passage especially impressed itself upon me : speaking of cases of dis- obedience to ecclesiastical authority, he says, "A man does not deceive that Bishop whom he sees, but he practises rather upon the Bishop Invisible, and so the question is not with flesh, but with God, who knows the secret heart." I wished to act on this principle to the letter, and I may say with confidence that I never consciously transgressed it. I loved to act in the sight of my Bishop, as if I was, as it were, in the sight of God. It was one of my special safe- guards against myself and of my supports ; I could not go very wrong while I had reason to believe that I was in no respect displeasing him. It was not a mere formal obedience to rule that I put before me, but I desired to please him personally, as I con- sidered him set over me by the Divine Hand. I was strict in observing my clerical engagements, not only because they were engagements, but because I HISTORY OF MY RELIGIOUS OPINIONS. 123 considered myself simply as the servant and instru- ment of my Bishop. I did not care much for the Bench of Bishops, except as they might be the voice of my Church : nor should I have cared much for a Provincial Council ; nor for a Diocesan Synod pre- sided over by my Bishop ; all these matters seemed to me to be jure ecclesiastico^ but what to me was jure divino was the voice of my Bishop in his own person. My own Bishop was my Pope; I knew no other; the successor of the Apostles, the Vicar of Christ. This was but a practical exhibition of the Anglican theory of Church Government, as I had already drawn it out myself. This continued all through my course; when at length in 1845 I wrote to Bishop Wiseman, in whose Vicariate I found myself, to announce my conversion, I could find nothing better to say to him, than that I would obey the Pope as I had obeyed my own Bishop in the Anglican Church. My duty to him was my point of honour; his disapprobation was the one thing which I could not bear. I believe it to have been a generous and honest feeling ; and in conse- quence I was rewarded by having all my time for ecclesiastical superior a man, whom had I had a choice, I should have preferred, out and out, to any other Bishop on the Bench, and for whose memory I have a special affection. Dr. Bagot — a man of noble mind, and as kind-hearted and as considerate as he was noble. He ever sympathized with me in my trials which followed ; it was my own fault, that 124 HISTORY OF MY RELIGIOUS OPINIONS. I was not brought into more familiar personal re- lations with him than it was my happiness to be. May his name be ever blessed ! And now in concluding my remarks on the second point on which my confidence rested, I observe that here again I have no retractation to announce as to its main outline. While I am now as clear in my acceptance of the principle of dogma, as I was in 1833 and 1816, so again I am now as firm in my belief of a visible Church, of the authority of Bishops, of the grace of the sacraments, of the reli- gious worth of works of penance, as I was in 1833. I have added Articles to my Creed ; but the old ones, which I then held with a divine faith, remain. 3. But now, as to the third point on which I stood in 1833, and which I have utterly renounced and trampled upon since, — my then view of the Church of Rome; — I will speak about it as exactly as I can. When I was young, as I have said already, and after I was grown up, I thought the Pope to be Antichrist. At Christmas 1824-5 I preached a Sermon to that efi^ect. In 1827 I accepted eagerly the stanza in the Christian Year, which many people thought too charitable, " Speak gently of thy sister's fall." From the time that I knew Froude I got less and less bitter on the subject. I spoke (suc- cessively, but I cannot tell in what order or at what dates) of the Roman Church as being bound up with " the cause of Antichrist," as being one of the " many antichrists " foretold by St. John, as being HISTORY OF MY RELIGIOUS OPINIONS. 125 influenced by "the spmi of Antichrist," and as having something " very Antichristian " or " un- christian" about her. From my boyhood and in 1824 I considered, after Protestant authorities, that St. Gregory I. about a.d. 600 was the first Pope that was Antichrist, and again that he was also a great and holy man ; in 1882-3 I thought the Church of Pome was bound up with the cause of Antichrist by the Council of Trent. When it was that in my deliberate judgment I gave up the notion altogether in any shape, that some special reproach was attached to her name, I cannot tell ; but I had a shrinking from renouncing it, even when my rea- son so ordered me, from a sort of conscience or pre- judice, I think up to 1843. Moreover, at least during the Tract Movement, I thought the essence of her offence to consist in the honours which she paid to the Blessed Virgin and the Saints ; and the more I grew in devotion, both to the Saints and to Our Lady, the more impatient was I at the Roman practices, as if those glorified creations of God must be gravely shocked, if pain could be theirs, at the undue veneration of which they were the objects. On the other hand, Hurrell Froude in his familiar conversations was always tending to rub the idea out of my mind. In a passage of one of his letters from abroad, alluding, I suppose, to what I used to say in opposition to him, he observes . " I think people are injudicious who talk against the Roman 126 HISTORY OF MY RELIGIOUS OPINIONS. Catholics for worshipping Saints, and honouring the Virgin and images, &c. These things may perhaps be idolatrous; I cannot make up m} mind about it; but to my mind it is the Carnival that is real practical idolatry, as it is written, ' the people sat down to eat and drink, and rose up to play/ " The Carnival, I observe in passing, is, in fact, one of those very excesses, to which, for at least three centuries, religious Catholics have ever op- posed themselves, as we see in the life of St. Philip, to say nothing of the present day; but this he did not know. Moreover, from Froude I learned to admire the great medieval Pontiffs ; and, of course, when I had come to consider the Council of Trent to be the turning-point of the history of Christian Rome, I found myself as free, as I was rejoiced, to speak in their praise. Then, when I was abroad, the sight of so many great places, venerable shrines, and noble churches, much impressed my imagina- tion. And my heart was touched also. Making an expedition on foot across some wild country in Sicily, at six in the morning I came upon a small church; I heard voices, and I looked in. It was crowded, and the congregation was singing. Of course it was the Mass, though I did not know it at the time. And, in my weary days at Palermo, I was not ungrateful for the comfort which I had received in frequenting the Churches, nor did I ever forget it. Then, again, her zealous mainte- nance of the doctrine and the rule of celibacy, which HISTORY OF MY BELIGIOUS OPINIONS. 127 I recognized as Apostolic, and her faithful agree- ment with Antiquity in so many points besides, which were dear to me, was an argument as well as a plea in favour of the great Church of Rome. Thus I learned to have tender feelings towards her ; but still my reason was not affected at all. My judgment was against her, when viewed as an institution, as truly as it ever had been. This conflict between reason and affection I expressed in one of the early Tracts, published July, 1834. "Considering the high gifts and the strong claims of the Church of Rome and its de- pendencies on our admiration, reverence, love, and gratitude; how could we withstand it, as we do, how could we refrain from being melted into ten- derness, and rushing into communion with it, but for the words of Truth itself, which bid us prefer It to the whole world ? ' He that loveth father or mother more than Me, is not worthy of me.' How could ' we learn to be severe, and execute judg- ment,' but for the warning of Moses against even a divinely-gifted teacher, who should preach new gods; and the anathema of St. Paul even against Angels and Apostles, who should bring in a new doctrine?" — Records^ No. 24. My feeling was something like that of a man, who is obliged in a court of justice to bear witness against a friend; or like my own now, when I have said, and shall say, so many things on which I had rather be silent. T 2 128 HISTORY OF MY RELIGIOUS OPINIONS. As a matter, then, of simple conscience, though it went against my feelings, I felt it to be a duty to protest against the Church of Rome. But besides this, it was a duty, because the prescription of such a protest was a living principle of my own Church, as expressed in not simply a catena^ but a con- sensus of her divines, and the voice of her people. Moreover, such a protest was necessary as an in- tegral portion of her controversial basis; for I adopted the argument of Bernard Gilpin, that Pro- testants " were not able to give oxij firm and solid reason of the separation besides this, to wit, that the Pope is Antichrist." But while I thus thought such a protest to be based upon truth, and to be a religious duty, and a rule of Anglicanism, and a necessity of the case, I did not at all like the work. Hurrell Froude attacked me for doing it; and, besides, I felt that my language had a vulgar and rhetorical look about it. I believed, and really measured, my words, when I used them ; but I knew that I had a temptation, on the other hand, to say against Rome as much as ever I could, in order to protect myself against the charge of Popery. And now I come to the very point, for which I have introduced the subject of my feelings about Rome. I felt such confidence in the substantial justice of the charges which I advanced against her, that I considered them to be a safeguard and an assurance that no harm could ever arise from the freest exposition of what I used to call Angli- HISTORY OF MY RELIGIOUS OPINIONS. 129 can principles. All the world was astounded at what Froude and I were saying : men said that it was sheer Popery. I answered, " True, we seem to be making straight for it; but go on awhile, and you will come to a deep chasm across the path, which makes real approximation impossible." And I urged in addition, that many Anglican divines had been accused of Popery, yet had died in their Anglicanism; — now, the ecclesiastical principles w^hich I professed, they had professed also; and the judgment against Rome which they had formed, I had formed also. Whatever faults then the Anglican system might have, and however boldly I might point them out, any how that system was not vulnerable on the side of Rome, and might be mended in spite of her. In that very agree- ment of the two forms of faith, close as it might seem, would really be found, on examination, the elements and principles of an essential discord- ance. It was with this supreme persuasion on my mind that I fancied that there could be no rashness in giving to the world in fullest measure the teaching and the writings of the Fathers. I thought that the Church of England was substantially founded upon them. I did not know all that the Fathers had said, but I felt that, even when their tenets happened to differ from the Anglican, no harm could come of reporting them. I said out what I was clear they had said; I spoke vaguely and 130 HISTORY OF MY RELIGIOUS OPINIONS. imperfectly, of what I thought they said, or what some of them had said. Any how, no harm could come of bending the crooked stick the other way, in the process of straightening it ; it was impossible to break it. If there was any thing in the Fathers of a startling character, it would be only for a time; it would admit of explanation; it could not lead to Rome. I express this view of the matter in a passage of the Preface to the first volume, which I edited, of the Library of the Fathers. Speaking of the strangeness at first sight, presented to the Anglican mind, of some of their principles and opinions, I bid the reader go forward hope- fully, and not indulge his criticism till he knows more about them, than he will learn at the outset. " Since the evil," I say, " is in the nature of the case itself, we can do no more than have patience, and recommend patience to others, and, with the racer in the Tragedy, look forward steadily and hopefully to the event^ rw reXei wCaTLv